Hello everyone!

This is my first post to these forums and as such, I feel the need to get a few things out of the way:

1) I live in Europe and English is not my native language, so I apologize in advance if my posts are hard to understand.

2) I've tried to search for an answer to a question I have about afterlife in these forums but I've not managed to find one, so if it has been answered, sorry for wasting your time.

3) What information about myself I'm about to divulge might not be very detailed, but I'm afraid I'm not very comfortable talking about my life in detail and frankly I believe it's not very relevant to my question either.


With those points out of the way, here's a bit about myself:

I'm man in my late 20s and I've lived a quite normal and happy life until about maybe nine years ago. I had suffered from slight to moderate depression but that issue has since been solved. Unfortunately, I've been diagnosed with a disesase that affects my throat and it's starting to seem the medication is not solving this issue.

My doctor told me that there is a surgical intervention available for my condition but it will only be considered as the very VERY last option. Apparently it is a dangerous operation and there's a chance it might not even solve my problem. So honestly, it's not looking good for me... 

I'm not sure if I'm really that scared about death per se, but I'm afraid if I'm not able to accomplish anything of value and lose all the things I love. This medical condition came at the worst time as I was finally able to do something with my life.

The thing is that I love being myself (with the exception of this physical condition that I suffer from obviously!), I love my family, friends, relatives. I love my hometown, my country and its people. I love lots of other cultures and nations as well, I love history, stories, entertainment, food and everything else this world has to offer. I love even the walks in the park, wind in my face, the sound of it in my ears as I step outside. There's just so much to love about this life of mine and the entire world!

So my question is, would it be possible to have some kind of virtual reality machine in Focus 27, where I could live this life again, forever if I felt like it, but with changes I want? For example, I'd rather not have the critical medical condition I mentioned and let's say if there was a some kind of an apocalyptical event coming up shortly, I'd rather not experience that either.

A virtual reality machine might sound a silly idea but my reasons for it are as follows:

1) In the virtual reality I'd forget that I ever died and would live thinking everything is as if I was still alive and I never died, so I'd get to see my 60s as if it was for real.

2) It would be enough for me if it felt like everything was as real as here and there was no way I'd find out it wasn't. As everything except the changes I wished would be the same as here, there would unfortunately be (unreal) human suffering (but of course not for me ). However, I don't want any real/actual human being/soul to suffer in "my world", so it's best it would just be a virtual reality and not some actual reality, where living souls would suffer for real. (However if the price for this virtual reality was that no human suffering is allowed for even the virtual reality people, that would be a quite small price to pay.)

3) It doesn't have to be a virtual reality machine per se. I just use the term because I think it's easy to understand and explain.

I don't want to sound bitter, but I'm not comfortable with the idea of reincarnation, especially if this is how my life is going to be. Just when I was about to contribute something to this world and not only do I get shut down, but also have to suffer from sleep impairing pain? No thank you for ever again to a such waste of time! In my virtual reality at least I could be happy about wasting it.

Thank you for your time and reading my question. I understand if this all sounds silly, but I'm afraid this idea is one of the only things that comforts me during these times. The pain in my throat/mouth is about borderline manageable now with moments of excruciating pain every now and then, but I fear the worst if this condition decides to ramp itself up to eleven...

Hi rondele and thank you for your reply!

The medical name of my condition is called Laryngopharyngeal reflux, apparantely also known as silent reflux disease. There's a sphincter above stomach that's supposed to keep acid in the stomach, but with us suffering from this disease the sphincter malfunctions and allows the stomach acid to rise to the food pipe or as in my case, all the way to the throat and mouth. Not very comfortable, as you can probably imagine and apparently there's a chance it might cause cancer if not gotten under control.

My doctor ordered me to take medicine that prevents stomach acid formation but as of yet its effectiveness has not been significant. He however told me it could take a lot of time for me to feel its effect.

In the surgery I mentioned they would apparently tie part of the stomach around the sphincter to help it stay closed. My doctor said it could lead to other serious complications and in time it might loosen enough to allow the acid to keep spilling up.

And you are right, nothing is set in stone. It could be that this disease just has affected my psyche as its pretty hard to sleep at times when your mouth feels like its been poked with needles and every time you swallow it feels like a stone is going down your throat.

Also I'm horrible with all this medical stuff. I tried to do a little research to my condition but it seems everybody has a completely different opinion about how to treat it, so I have just followed my doctor's orders. I did try a recommended diet for my condition but it felt like it worsened the pain.

I'm sorry to hear about your condition. It isn't easy having your own stomach liquids eating you no matter where it affects you.

In my case, I was told to take a medicine called Somac daily and the doctor told me to stay clear of chocolate, peppermint, tomatoes and spicy foods among other things. Cutting out everything else but tomatoes is easy. Not that I'm a big fan of tomatoes anyway, it's just that it seems to be in just about everything, especially in sauces.

Hi Vicky and thank you for your kind comments!

I agree with a lot of what you said. Maybe I'm easily entertained or something but if I was allowed to correct a few things about my life, I'd be happy to relive it again and again for the rest of eternity. If you locked me up in my virtual reality I wouldn't even notice!

Your thoughts about memories also struck a chord with me. When I was in elementary school one of the biggest fears was that I would develop some sort of dementia and completely forget everything about myself, the people I care about and my entire life. Memories are very precious thing to me and I get easily very nostalgic.

Memories are also very peculiar at times. You might suddenly remember something completely random, something you'd think you already had lost in time yet it could surface for absolutely no reason and you can even remember how the actual situation of the memory made you feel. The power of memories is incredible at times!

Also, my condolences for your son's medical condition.
These stomach related issues seem to be very common these days for some reason.

And thank you for the heads-up about eosinophilic esophagitis. My problems are definitely more in the throat/mouth area but it might not be a bad idea to have a deeper check in the esophagus/stomach area. The doctor I went to was a ear, nose and throat specialist. He looked in my throat with those little handheld mirrors and told me that my voice box had clear reflux inflammation.

The problem however is that our health care system is overwhelmed with this COVID-19 business and travel between provinces is prohibited, so I'm not sure if I can get to a stomach specialist in my little town.

Well, it doesn't look good, but I still have some options left in my treatment arsenal. It's not over just yet!

Hi Vicky!

I can relate with you about a family member having memory problems. My grandfather from mother's side suffers from Alzheimer's disease. Before the condition he was always doing chores and going around the town with his car, but in a span of a year or two this once active and energetic person is nothing but a confused and lumbering ruin of a man. It pains me to even look at him when I visit him at the nursing home.

I think it's a wise and correct decision to protect your mind with the things you mentioned. I'm not too concerned with it at the moment myself, because I feel like I have strong enough memory, but with time that's probably going to change.

Thank you for the diet recommendation! I might give it a shot at it if my other options fail. And you're definitely not alone with your wish that things would normalize. Two years ago the good old days were in the 90s for me. Now it's two years ago.

Hi Albert-

You said, regarding your mom- "What she is experiencing is beyond what she would've imagined while here in this world. I'd say, a lot more wonderful than she expected."

I'm reminded how there are plenty of books and accounts about NDEs, but very little about what life is like after death. Yes, there's the usual stuff about beautiful music, colors unlike any we see on earth, feelings of PUL, etc but when it comes to ongoing activities not so much.

So I'm wondering if you could provide more details about what your mom is experiencing and how she spends her "time" considering there's no need for shopping, dr/dentist appointments, house related chores, etc etc.

R

Thanks Albert-

It's good that you can maintain contact with your mom. Are you able to pose specific questions to her, ie is there a Hall or Temple of Knowledge where books on every conceivable subject are available?

I don't recall if ES got into this level of detail about the afterlife. I do remember he described his exploration of hell and discussed angels and demons but that's about I can recall..

Thanks
R

What a lovely message about a peaceful transition from a mother. I agree that it is okay not to ask for more. It is the emotional tone of the messages that we get that matters the most. It reinforces the hope that we have in the face of our difficulties and is a reward for being human.