I'm there.

this is whats in progress for me regarding Sonia, but I have the calendar marked for the 18th.

I briefly touched in as Sonia has been talking to me a bit. this is what I got. Sonia changed into a man, then back to a woman. I took this to mean Sonia has both polarities within the soul making.

In the male form is the active polarity responsible for what Sonia goes thru now. I called forth the aspect of male to talk with me, regarding being chased in the astral.
The aspect, I'll call him "D" for now was in tears. the load was tremendous of guilt. I told D we were going to take care of it shortly.
I asked D to write down everything it thinks it has done, but try not to get carried away, just write down the major things that are causing Sonia to feel separated, alone and depressed.

When the list was complete I asked D to call me. I would then retrieve the list and take it to my counselors table in the astral. these are my disc members who advice me.
They would be able to advice me what on the list is real and what is nothing to worry about.
I have a suspicion right now most of the list is "made up."
Meaning it's a false interpretation from Sonia's mind, that got shoved into the unconscious. like a false self image.
this would cause fear to be in Sonia, for guilt feelings are mainly a fear of receiving punishment.

This fear makes it seem like one is being chased in the astral.
in that case, you must face every fear. or at the least be willing to face everywhere and ask Spirit to aide you.

Be aware, these entities are insubstantial and cannot harm you Sonia. Fear itself is just fear, it's yourself who feeds your fear forms. they tend to start dissolving when you are willing to unravel them to see what the cause is.

which is feeling guilty and projecting guilt unto your own "bad" self.
You will soon begin to think of everything thats good about you.

because I know where to get the record. everybody reading this, think of how we can aide Sonia please. the more join in, we can get it done.

thanks! I'll be back after the 18th or so. alysia 

Sounds like you'd need a healing boost. I guess the moderators can organize a date where we'll send you some healing thoughts and energies.

Meanwhile, have you ever given the complete above list
1. To a medicinal doctor
2. To a psychologist and/or psychiatrist?
Maybe they'll find nothing, or suggest a treatment that you don't agree with, but maybe they have some good advice, you never know.

What do you personally think? Is it something on soul/mind level, or more something bodily? Or something in between, like your family background and/or people in your surrounding? When did it start?

Don't try to give us a self-examination here, just think about it for yourself if you haven't done so already, but maybe you find something which could be helpful for anyone who tries to help you.

Spooky

Romain,

"If you wish 18th is free for focus healing??" --> What is that?

I am very much interested in any help I can get, because I sense part of me remains in denial of the problem and I can't seem to wake up.

I gotta get rid of this "victim" feeling I've got and getting myself more into spiritual trouble.

I seek a way to pull this off.

Thanks to you all,

Sonia

Quote Sonia:
"I gotta get rid of this "victim" feeling I've got and getting myself more into spiritual trouble."

Yes. I think it may be beneficial if you had something you could joyously focus on. A hobby, a profession. Something you like, and something you think you are good in. This is something we need to define us as a person, and as a presence in the physical. A ground-base we can always return to when things (relationships) get strange.

Spooky

Hi Sonia,
I, too, think about why I did something, and if it was correct, and reflect about my own thoughts. But as well I often notice that my self-reflections start to become circles, or go farther and farther, and at some point of time I realize that there will no new insights come from continueing that thought-thread. So, I guess it's like so many things in life, a healthy balance is the main thing. Self reflection yes, but only as much as is useful.

Spooky

Hi Sonia,

Help, please, some of us need a bit more to focus on if that is not your face avatar.
If not, could you give us a nearby city? maybe you did once but I forgot it.

Also healers, I found recently that having the city and the avatar name works quickly when you review in your mind that each post by that name leads back to the person. Not that we send it through the computer and internet, but when you get near their city, it helps to sort things out.

Bets

Hi all, hi Sonia. I have a while back put your name for peace of mind under a crystal I use. just thought I'd mention that so you will know we are all together working on your well being.

I mentally note that in four days it will be Your Day! the 18th.
You should structure that day to not be quite as active mentally and physically as you usually are. this way you may be able to report to us any healing effects. You might feel inexplicable love, it's hard to say what you might experience, so we need your input.

so be receptive and accepting of what appears for you, as well, I note with another forum member, their healing extended over a week or so, so don't put time limits on this process.

dearlite Sonia, I know I asked for a list but I need to clarify, it's not a list of physical complaints as such that I wanted. I too have some of your complaints. when I get physically tired, I simply take a nap. I don't think you allow yourself to nap, so I thought I'd mention it, we are not physically immortal and we might have a wonderful spiritual path we are on, or belief system, but we are still going to need rest when appropriate, especially as we add years to ourselves.

its part of that nurturing thing I mentioned earlier.

During these next 4 days I know where my subconscious thoughts will be. they will be on you. At night, I believe we all go out of body and I have met many forum members, catching glimpses and snatches of conversation with them, about the well being of this entire board and also it's about the shift in consciousness on our entire planet, it's like a wave of energy is on all of us now, even some of our physical pains are associated with this shifting process.
so during the next four days there will be a build up of energy for you, to be set in place for the 18th.
if you cannot handle the entire energy package, so to speak, it will be doled out to you as u are able to receive it without any discomfort and that's why I said it can extend during a week or two, because you will be doing the accepting part through the mental framework; ie: read Spooky's meditation example in the link Romain told you to go.

U asked me "why did D do it?" (D is Sonia's masculine side, as I reference it.

That's for you to figure out, but I think D is reaching for the truth, and wanting to break free of this 3rd generation stuff, whereby a pattern gets repeated.

For now, you might remember the song somebody wrote once, called "what I did for love."  some lyrics go, wont regret, wont forget, what I did for love.

and read your own message under the picture "where there is love, there is hope."

then tie these thoughts into your newest breakthrough, where you said you have to get away from ideas that you are a victim.

since you are a very mentally active person, as I see it, you will work mentally until your heart chakra gets more active and you begin to think with your heart intelligence. as you think about your new breakthrough that you cannot be a victim, find out why higher self was active always in your life, and find ways to consider that you are not a victim, because you wanted to be here now in this time of the shift in consciousness where we find our oneness.

find out why you thought that way, that you were victimized, see if you learned anything from relationships of value. I think you will be pleasantly surprised to learn that there was a higher power walking you through, each step of the way.
sort of like that poetry, of the foot steps in the sand, where you couldn't see God, and that was when he picked u up in his/her arms and carried you through while you slept from exhaustion of your emotional journey.

Your a fighter Sonia. Now you are shifting into your softer side, letting go and letting god do the work.

see ya soon! I feel really good about you. hugs!

side note: the list I wanted would be a mental list of something you buried, like a secret guilt list.
u only forwarded a list of symptoms on the body which developed from the unconscious load of guilt thoughts.

just make them conscious, and hand them over to your higher self to deal with. not here especially, but list them in your head, write them on paper. watch what happens when you write something down like that. you're healing the subconscious to the conscious.
everybody has to do this, but you're speeding it up.

History's MysterY:
Re: SHWP for Thursday September 18th (Sonia Faith)
betson wrote on Sep 14th, 2008, 8:25am:
I found recently that having the city and the avatar name....

Sonia wrote:
Are you sure this is absolutely necessary?

I felt kind of safer being anonymous, do you understand.

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I'm not sure what we have to aim at.....
------Your avatar face?  Is it a model?
------Your avatar name? Have you had it long enough it has built up some energy as you, maybe on another site as well?

What are you safe or unsafe from? 
You could PM just those who've said they're participating whom you trust and tell them.

Bets 

Hi Sonia,

I participated in the healing this morning for you.  I used the technique of meditating with a clear quartz crystal because of properties of healing and light.  I focused on clarity, clearing, cleansing, clear thinking, and clear decision making.  This was for the purpose of creating a clear path mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. 

Like Bets was saying, it's a little easier for me to focus on a face when I try to connect with someone, either that or an emotional attachment.  Since I have neither of those with you, I used the crystal and the "clear channel" representation as a way to send to your higher self those properties that you can benefit from.  When I meditate I like to remind myself that there is abundance out there, for anything we want or need.  But we need to realize it and be open to receiving it.  So that's what I focused on for you.  If you allow yourself to open up to those things, they will make their way to you because they are already there for you to have.

For your long list of ailments I personally would recommend you see your doctor for what he can do for you, and for anything else on the list you could practice breathing and relaxation exercises, along with meditation and visualization for opening yourself up to your own healing.  I think most often the physical ailments we deal with are a result of blockages in our energy. 

Love,

Vicky

Hello Sonia:

I just read this post. I sent you some healing energy. 

How long have the physical symptoms you experience been going on? Perhaps you're going through a cleansing process.  Psychological and emotional issues get locked up within our bodies and cause various physical problems. When they get cleared they can cause more problems than usual, both physically and psychologically. The process can seem rough for a while, but eventually things work themselves out.

Regarding the dreams of being chased etc, do you have any fears that relate? Perhaps the dreams serve a cleansing purpose. I've had a number of out of body experiences where I dealt with unfriendly beings. Doing so helped me get over my fear of such beings, because they never got the best of me. These experiences were created by my higher self/guidance in order to let me know that I don't need to worry about unfriendly beings. Perhaps the same point is being made to you in your dreams. If you choose the light, nothing can stop you from doing so. Perhaps you should stand up to whatever chases you in your dreams. Send love to whatever projection that occurs.

Have you tried making a list of the issues that have troubled you during your life? If you do so and get clear on these issues as best as you can, it can really help. There is no hurt, anger or fear you need to hold onto. Your spiritual reality always provides a resolution.

You're welcome Sonia:

Sonia wrote: "Yes, it's possible. When I feel mentally bad, I feel sick. When I have certain thoughts, influencing my state of mind, I get pains in specific areas, being each time the same.

eg. When I am in doubt because of somebody else's opinion, I feel like I get strangulated at the throat. That is why I think I was murdered in a past life by strangulation.

eg. When I doubt about other issues, I feel pain in the leg or something. It's is really bizarre."

Recoverer responds: The above is significant. I've found that when I have pain in a particular part of my body, it is caused by an energetic block that is caused by a psychological issue. I've found that thinking about an issue can cause the energy level and pain in an effected area to become more active. I believe what happens is that when we think of the responsible issue the responsible thought pattern comes to life and causes a problem. Thoughts are energy. I've been able to clear many of these blocks. Spirit guidance has helped me do so. There have been times when we worked together on clearing a block. You can ask your spirit guidance to help you clear a block.

One night I lay in bed and had upper back between my shoulder blades. I asked my spirit guidance to turn up the energy so the block could be cleared. Immediately after asking this the energy level and pain increased significantly. It throbbed. I wondered how I would fall asleep, but did so with no problem. When I woke up in the moring the block and pain were gone.





Sonia wrote: "I tried many times to face my opponent, but in my dreams I am in a more unconscious state, so it is difficult to control your reaction. I tend to face more difficulties now, but I am still learning."

Recoverer responds: "I know what you mean. I've found that lucid dreams and OBEs do allow you to be conscious. Perhaps you should set the goal to have a lucid dream. To do so, imagine yourself dealing with whatever it is you need to deal with ahead of time. Such a practice might carry over. Even now, it is possible that your dreams are an indication that you don't have to worry. Think of it this way:

1. If an unfriendly being is responsible, in the end it never got the best of you.
2. If your higher self/guidance created the experience, which is much more likely than number 1, your guidance is telling you in an experiential way that you don't have to worry.
3. Nothing more than your subconsious mind is playing out whatever concerns you might have.

Sonia:

This is great to hear. Good job by you and the people who sent you energy. Regarding the bubble popping thing, I've heard it numerous times in various parts of my body.  Bruce Moen wrote about a popcorn popping sound when it comes to spirits who release unwanted energy.

Thanks for telling us Sonia. 

Spooky

The weather is really beautiful in my country now. It is sunny, the trees are all flowery.

Somehow, I feel this improves the situation as well. It gives a magical feeling to the overall impression.

I sense I am more aware of things. Also, I have a sense of "Knowing" and that scares me actually, because usually I feel ignorant about almost anything.

Suddenly, I know the soul is a vibration.
Suddenly, I know that the soul's natural way is love and abundance and that everything blocking that causes negativity and hurt.
SUddenly, I know that I should find a method to think that way. Maybe I should ask the Universe? (What do you think)

Also, I feel more open to feelings. eg. I never cry when something bad happens, because that makes me feel weak, but I did cry today about everything that ever went wrong.

I still feel in my own bubble somehow, like a part of me is still out of reach.

At the same time, I feel things have never been this perfect and it makes me wonder if I am still alive. Is this reality? Did I die without knowing it and is the situation changing because my awareness changed...

I felt bubbles going "pop" inside my chest as well.

It is definitely going better.

I believe it matters to know what you do makes a difference.

Thank you.

Sonia

I wanted to dedicate one post to say:

THANK YOU to you all, who have participated to this.

In alphabetical order:
Betson
LaffingRain
Recoverer
Romain
Spooky
Vee
Vicky
(Let's hope I forgot nobody, here)

Special thanks to Romain, for being the moderator of this forum.

Much love,

Sonia

Hi,

I wanted to mention that on the first night of the 18th, I saw somebody looking at me through a mirror.

It was a lady with long brown hair and glasses, with thick black borders. She was wearing a white dress, with a blue flower print. Maybe this is a nonphysical helper. I don't know. She was looking so young and astonished that I saw her. She looked at me in a mirror, as if she was trying to be discrete.

It reminds me of a name: Mairlin Maitreya or something. I saw this name years ago on this board, but don't see it now anymore.

In general, my dreams improved. Meaning I see better stuff eg. me plucking ripe raspberries, or being on a trip in Italy. Last night, I visioned 3 huge silver antenna's shaped like open flowers, sending waves. I was with somebody in a car, who said she worked in a center near these huge silver antenna's and that she bought her sandwiches nearby.

There was also that man in a garden, who was happy because he was covered with large golden coins. Although it was a pretty picture to see him that way, I liked it less, because I sensed he would have made war to have these coins. He did not look like he had the best intentions, but he fortunately did not see me, because he was too obsessed with hiding this "treasure" of his.

Sonia

Hi Sonia,

The unusual noises are a good sign that your spiritual body/bodies are realligning.  That's typical or usual of one's spiritual being being awakened, so don't be alarmed.  It's sort of fun when you realize what it is. 

Marilyn does have long hair, and spiritually she can appear in a more vital form than her current age would suggest.  (I guess I can say that since I'm also her age )  I hope she'll come by and respond to your perception.

You really seem to be opening to spirit !  That's great!

Bets

Hi again,

since you're reading Bruce's books, you might want to skip ahead to book 5, The Afterlife Guidance Handbook-- now!  It gives very specific suggestions on what will work at this stage to get you OB, and you are ready, by your description  That's great !

Your energy is rising and will want to exit at the top of your head. Sit up straight*  when you have some quiet pleace and time and breath deeply and gently.
This is not all though --do you have that book?

Bets

*  I'm not trying to be your mother,    just saying what will work for OBs.

Hello Sonia;

Let go back to "Changing or Eliminating Old, Outdated Beliefs" in Bruce book for a while at the bottom the page he says:

Quote:


Sonia you may be going through a "Little Belief Crash" at the moment, that all; nothing to worry about.
To try to put it into my own words...the way i see and understand it is:

The Belief you were holding is like a physical "ROCK"..and now your making conscious moves toward cracking/chipping slowly at this rock; it's sending energy to the core of this ROCK;chipping at it ...removing some of the layers bit by bits until it's pulverized..feels like loosing a good friend who's been there for quite a while but need to move on.....
I'ts call a believe crash and we all went thought it one time or another; but you need to realize it's happening..
And sometimes you miss it... but a new you is emerging now keep working on it..IMPO..stay with that exercise for a while..before attempting the OB'er stuff...it will come in time..but like i say it's my personal opinion..
PUL.
R

Yes i saw and read your dream...those thing happened..but we did notice your change..
Keep moving forward Sonia.
PUL; R.