To make a very long story very short, when she devel-
oped breast cancer, Nancy accepted the orthodox route for
treatment. This meant surgery to remove the tumor and a
number of lymph nodes, chemotherapy, and radiation. Each
slowed up the process but no more.

Two nights after her departure, I thought I had cooled
down enough to attempt to visit her. Which I did. The result
was an emotional explosion that included every nuance ex-
isting between two humans deeply in love, all up-front and
simultaneous, without the limitations of time and physical
matter. It was a great effort to return, and it took days to
recover.

A second attempt a week later brought the same result. It
was simply too much to handle. Until I learned more, I had to
put up a shield that restricts any kind of nonphysical activity
on my part. No more Interstate pro tem or contacts with
friends in that area. Only the I-There of me. I begin to drift in
Nancy's direction even in the deepest sleep, so the barrier had
to include this state too. Thus my rest is greatly impaired.

I now have a new challenge, a massive adjustment to
make. One I hadn't considered. A very new direction. Can I
live in two worlds at the same time? With Nancy in 27, and
Here with our lonely fur family—seven cats and two dogs—in
a lonely house?

I don't know.

* * *

. . . Still, another voice from my I-There insists:
Once the transition is made, only the heavily addicted
remain closely attached to the physical life they have just de-
parted, according to your data and others. For most, the
resonance/interest/attachment begins to fade almost immedi-
ately, some slowly, some rapidly. But it does. All of your data
show this, except for the rare "ghost" application. Even with
your Big L as binding as it is.

How long will your Silver Queen lady remain in and
around your Focus 27? You don't know and we don't know.
Like all of the others, she is exposed to attractive freedoms
you of all humans are very aware of. But you can't leave here.

Not at this time; you have too many things to complete. Re-
member your mother and her cello? She taught you something
without even knowing that she did.

And don't forget: at the very least, you know that your
Silver Queen will be with you at final departure when we
wink out in the thirty-fifth century.

What more do you want!

There is a biographical book called, "The Journey of Robert Monroe."

I never got around to reading my copy, but there is a chapter called "End game." It states that Robert had health issues during his later years, couldn't take part in the activities he loved to do (sailing, flying, composing music), was lonely, and found it too heartbreaking to approach his deceased wife in focus 27.

On page 272 the book says, "He could not face the emotional trauma of drifting in Nancy's direction even in the deepest sleep."

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When a Soul focuses a portion of its attention on a body-based life, that focus of attention is likely to experience some limitations.

How can an incarnated portion of a Soul be a focus of attention and fully present in the spirit World at the same time? As long as a portion of a Soul feels some degree of separation from its Source, it will to some extent feel incomplete.

Sometimes people believe they are free of belief systems when to some extent they have replaced one belief system with another.

Even when we find out what truth actually is, we are going to believe something. The question is,