Enjoy your day Sonia (Barbara of Brussels)..

Be open to the SHWP energies dedicated/send to you today.

PUL; R.

HI everyone,

I already noticed some changes. I'll report them to you a.s.a.p.

Thank you all. 

Sonia

recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:


Many thanks to you and all the others who are doing the same.

recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:


I have had them for my entire life, but you really have to know me, otherwise you see nothing (if you don't pay attention).

Currently, I am running a bloodtest though. I haven't had the result yet, but I encountered a new and really good doctor this time, who digs deeper into issues than the other doctors. Curious to hear what's he's gonna say.

recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:


Yes, it's possible. When I feel mentally bad, I feel sick. When I have certain thoughts, influencing my state of mind, I get pains in specific areas, being each time the same.

eg. When I am in doubt because of somebody else's opinion, I feel like I get strangulated at the throat. That is why I think I was murdered in a past life by strangulation.

eg. When I doubt about other issues, I feel pain in the leg or something. It's is really bizarre.

recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:


I tried many times to face my opponent, but in my dreams I am in a more unconscious state, so it is difficult to control your reaction. I tend to face more difficulties now, but I am still learning.

recoverer wrote on Sep 19^th, 2008 at 11:14am:


That's an excellent idea. I didn't think of it, but I think I should do so. Mentally, I made some kind of list, because I seem to always bump into the same problems, so I started seeing a pattern. Also out of boredom. It's like running around the same block for eternity.

Thank you for your advice and care, recoverer.

I appreciate your input.

Sonia

So, I was going to report you the changes I noticed so far:



 

Now I am going to explain you in which state of mind I was before the healing: I was calm, had a calm day, I believed in it, yet I did not build up expectations, because I want to be honest with myself and you about the reality of the effect. I said to myself, that I was going to keep an eye on myself, my feelings and my perception in general, and that's all.

Now comes the effect:
It started a day before the 18th: I felt more confident, clearer, but it puzzles me that I felt something different a day earlier. Maybe you'ld like to know this.

On the 18th:
At first, I did not feel any difference...
then gradually I felt calmer, but I did not notice it right away. I am always really tense at the shoulders and the neck. I mean my muscles are really contracted, even when at my calmest stage. It gradually cracked, especially in the back of the neck, under the skull. (As I now sit before the computer, I am still a little tense in my shoulders)
Then I felt like -- I am not sure how to explain this -- bubbles popping in my head (about 2cm diameter, like soap bubbles). It is like, there were bubbles blocking the clarity of my view, and they went "POP" and then it was gone. I had this 1 to 3 times.
Then, much later (maybe about 3 hours later), I felt like a vibration in my head, but that was short, maybe 5 seconds.

But after that, it really became more interesting.

I talked about the bubbles earlier. After that, for about 1 hour or 2, it was like little bubbles of foam "Popped/exploded". I would compare it with small foamy soap bubbles, popping one at the time. I really felt things got clearer, but I also sense there are some left.

At some point, my head felt lighter for a few seconds, but I cannot recall at what moment.

Gradually, it is like I started thinking differently. I felt I loved myself more (for no apparent reason) and because of that, I felt more confident. I also thought a little quicker. Lacking clarity, often makes me slower to understand, you see. (Actually, I see that now, better).

Since I noticed it, I decided I'ld test my state of mind, by thinking of things that would usually cause me not to love myself very much. Actually, I decided I didn't care how much I failed. I thought I'ld love myself, no matter what. I'd come to realize, that I love myself on condition that I am PUL. So, I am simply gonna give myself a break.

This has nothing to do, with what I told you previously, but I felt so happy. I said to myself that I felt "superdoopey" happy. It's kinda funny.     Plus, I had the feeling nothing really mattered, at all.

Then I thought I'd never thought I'd feel like that during this lifetime.

And now (the 19th), as I am writing, I feel all warm and I finally want to get some peace.

I had a hard time, coming down to write this all, because I really feel more like enjoying it, instead of talking about it, but I thought that was kinda selfish, so I came to my computer anyway.

In fact, after I have washed my dishes, I intend to go sleeping without watching any TV. Till now, I was always on a quest searching for something, but my inner voice now tells me, that we've come to find what we were searching, so we can quit "that" search.

I wish I could feel like this forever. I wish it would never stop.

I think I cannot thank you, because it is beyond my words.

Sonia

Sonia thank you for sharing and letting us help.

So these bubbles; don't know it you got to see the link i posted to you on another post or it got delete; regarding Bruce technique he used to remove unwanted thoughts/believe pattern did work as far as i'm concern.

Great news; and keep it up
PUL
Romain

Hi Sonia. I am just now reporting on what came through for me regarding your problems. The first couple of times I went "in" to look at you there seemed to be a lot of muddle going on, and my own feelings responded with confused ideas and possibilites, but something seemed to be hovering right "on the tip of my tongue" so to speak, but I could not quite access it.

Having gotten past that after my third entry into the healing place, this message came through for me very quickly and clearly this morning, Saturday.

There seems to be a very acute response in your body and brain to an environmental exposure of some kind. For example, people who have new carpeting installed can suffer these kinds of reactions, because of the various toxic gases released  by new carpeting.

Or the use of brand new "foamies" which release formaldehyde and other toxic gases for up to two years after purchase (and we sleep right on them, go figure!).

I am not saying it is carpeting or foamies or any one thing Sonia, in your case, but I am trying to give you examples of the myriad of possibilites in our chemical-mad world.

You are very sensitive and remind me of a case I read about a few years ago where one poor lady was sensitive to so many thngs in her environment that, to stay alive, she had to avoid a great part of life entirely.

You don't seem to be like that, but there is SOMETHING and maybe more than one single thing, that your body and brain are throwing up their hands and saying "OK, UNCLE, I give up."

This is what I have received as information. Thank you for allowing me to participate, I hope this helps at least in some small way. Vee

Vee wrote on Sep 20^th, 2008 at 1:27pm:


Vee,

Regarding your post, I am indeed very sensitive to exterior conditions. I am fastly sick when there is a flu around. I sneeze when there is too much dust. Also, I don't like when there is too much "blinding" sun. In that way, you saw right.

But I haven't got any specific allergy. I am just sensitive to everything.

Also, I asked for clarity, because I have had many confusing ideas and I kept throwing thoughts at it in a desperate attempts to untie the nods.

You wrote: "...something seemed to be hovering right "on the tip of my tongue" so to speak, but I could not quite access it".
I have this feeling very often, that is why I feel so frustrated at times.

You also wrote: "You don't seem to be like that, but there is SOMETHING and maybe more than one single thing, that your body and brain are throwing up their hands and saying "OK, UNCLE, I give up."

I give up is not really my kind of sentence. I would rather say:"I really don't know what to do know, so I'll keep searching until I find a solution, and because of that, I do nothing right now to solve anything, because I don't know what to do." That is more my style. It looks like I give up, but in fact I am just seeking.

Thank you for your comments.
I always appreciate other people's inside of the situation.

Sonia