I'd thought i'd share some of my retrieval experiences, even thought none of it is verifiable at this stage.

Retrieval 6

Impressions.

Monk helper appeared and when I asked to be guided to someone who needed retrieval, a succession of different images flickered through, but I felt I was in empty bluey space, but felt someone almost like treading water off to my right. They seemed a little panicked with arms and legs flailing.
I got the impression he fell over board from a fishing boat, he’s Asian, from a village. He loves his family and sees it his duty to provide for them.
At one point I thought I was communicating in an Asian language, but I couldn’t understand it.

When introduced him to the helper, I saw someone come ‘swimming’ in and rescue him and take him to shore. I felt the helper had taken on the persona of his brother who’d died earlier as a way of saying that’s died.

When on the beach, they were greeted by his parents who’d both died, and they were getting him ready for sleep, so he could rest and integrate into the spiritual world again.

After I had a little rant to my monk helper about wanting something completely verifiable and he changed to scene to a piazza and asked me to feel the concrete, feel the water from the fountain and smell what appeared to be vanilla. I still wasn’t convinced and asked for physical proof.

And I left it at that. 

I know i sound like little boy having a hissy fit wanting verifiable proof, but i guess i need to trust more

Bardo,

yes i know you are right and i feel it too. I get the sense i need to keep trusting in the process and my verification, (BSC) will come when i'm ready.

I also have to keep in mind the reasons why i do retrievals and that's for compassionate reasons, i'd hate to be stuck somewhere and i would like someone to come help me.

BTW i think all my pleading for a sign came true the other day when  i found a single white fluffy feather floating around the floor of my room. It wasn't a feather from a pillow or bird nearby, i've got no idea how it got to be there. I've since framed it and use it a reminder to trust.