lol! both u guys are a hard read for a mystic but I still like to try! I just have this affinity for the two of you and others here too of course.
see, I'm already off your topic!
I could briefly describe how I died to a role once to see if that helps. this was an aspect? of me, but as it floated in space, it couldn't remember who it was, where it was, and there was no memories of a former life for this aspect. However I was aware that I was I. the same energy feel to me that I feel today.
I had been sprung. I no longer had a mother. I was no longer her daughter. this role of daughter died and was dissociated now and floated, seeking where to belong, to begin again. No memories of having been a daughter were noticed and I didn't know daughter had died either but I was aware I was free now, and sprung, from what I don't know. didn't seem to matter, as I did enjoy the feeling of freedom from something.
as I coasted as this energy body, aware I was I, I felt a little sadness to be out here all alone but still I was free, then I noticed I was still able to have movement so I moved along and then I noticed a trait within self. this trait seemed the whole of myself. It was as sense of adventure I enjoyed. I did not see anything else inside me but this. the sense of adventure was my energy signature. this trait was a positive forward thrust energy as I went looking for whatever I could find. and still no memory of another life, or any people I had known.
I could imagine this experience might be a little like what it's like for a stuck person, who can get retrieved perhaps, as I did have a strong question what its like to be dead and not even know you are dead.
I became aware as I floated that I enjoyed interaction with others. so that became my objective to find others to interact with. the need to communicate. I think this not to be unique in myself. just the sense of adventure was more like a trait, like of keeping a positive attitude, something I had actually cultivated somewhere.
so in a sense I was then, inbetween lives.
as this part of me had died. I'd just burned off all karma with mom. she was now my roommate. not my mother. however, there was like I said, a freedom to attain knowledge we are not the roles that we engage each other with,(entirely) we change roles within spirit realm and lives, even we change sex roles.
to make a long story short, I finally gravitated somehow up to my physical daughter and asked her what was going on, that no one could see or hear me when I spoke and I could not relate and be a part of groups to interact and be useful. disconcerting feeling of nothingness to experience. we need each other. so retrievals are very helpful to connect others to others.
she told me I was dead. I became highly elated to discover I was dead! haha!
that is when it felt like a religious rapture occurred and a tunnel of energy swept me up as I surrendered myself to oblivion if necessary.
oblivion is a nice ride, but it didn't happen to be obliviated, the surrender part was the best part as that was like being in love. and completely trusting the process of being in love, or in the grip of something that knew where to put me next. going down this tunnel was like the speed of light or sound, like free falling out of an airplane hoping you have a ripcord and it works but knowing this was the biggee moment you'd been wondering about all your life.
at the point of coming out of the tunnel, memories began to return, feelings of some kind of accomplishment where things could have gone much worse and they didn't, so now all was well and I was in the right place with the right people.
so all this is just another perspective, not even scientific in the least but I hope to contribute something to the topic. love, alysia