Thank you Juditha, I see you as a true and shining light from where I sit. I'm a bit of a beginning medium also, so we are a lot alike, and Mair's right, the doubts come and they go, but when you ask, or pray, the answer appears somehow, so we must be loved and love is the greatest treasure of all. now let me try to share another little story I have. I am getting older, and I always prayed that as I age, I could also age in wisdom. sometimes I have doubts I have, then sometimes I don't doubt I have wisdom accessible to all.
I used to belong to a spiritualist church 40 years ago, but I have carried the wisdom they taught me to this day. I used to be lucky and get picked often enough for a message from spirit. I doubted that I could do what they were doing, to give forth messages of good cheer or good advice, or just to inform you're going on a trip or getting married! lol. so we had quite a few people hoping for a message one night. I didn't get a message and I figured I should have..I had driven 50 miles one way for the opportunity. a side note: during one meeting, the medium (we had several) said I could get my own messages. I hadn't exactly accepted I could and you know, those doubts popped up. but I nodded my head and tried to understand what she was offering me, that I really could do what she was doing, at least for myself. this night in question, I drove home feeling despondent. I hadn't gotten a message that night. when driving long miles I usually sing loud songs to pass the time.
the next week I returned for a message and the medium said the spirits were around me listening to me croon down the highway! lol. so back to the sad night of doubting myself. as I drove down the highway I thought to myself "nobody loves me." I didnt' get a message. I must be a loser. yada yada. its just that all of us couldn't get a reading that night. as I muddled in my mud thoughts about it...a voice said very cheerily and extremely clearly WE LOVE YOU!!! I knew this wasn't my imagination to hear such cheer, as for one thing my mood was instantly changed, and my own thoughts and feelings do not affect me this way. instantly I knew it was true, what the medium said, the spirits were around me, or perhaps they were even disc members, but they were real individuals and most importantly, they loved me and offered me inspiration with their love. I tried to sing better after that..lol...it was like having an audience or something!!!! hey, I'd say listen to this note!!!

blessings, and know that we are not alone, even though it seems we are at times. hugs, alysia