Hello

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Hi everyone,

I am also a newbie in here and I read a lot of posts in this site and found it is very helful and interesting.  I tried to post my own topic but I have no way to post it up...So, I used this topic to mime...I'm so desperate....so I hope you guys forgive me and I sincerely sorry.

I loved one passed away little over a month by brain aneurysm.  We were so much in love with each other.   He passed away on 1-24-06 exactly a week before his 40th b-day.  He passed away constantly at work(within 10seconds)...And I wasn't there.  I am missing him terribly.  4 or 5 days after his death...I dream of him and saw him with a happy smiley face and I asked him:"do you know that you are already dead and you still smiling at me?...Do you know that you are so lucky that you already die and a lot of people(friends) are still crying and thinking about you?" Then he disappeared very brief. 

And the second time I dream of him was...he was stood next to some guy(look like his co-worker) and I was so happy in the dream and turned to the man next to him and ask for a key...then I turned over ....he disappeared.  I ran and ran so quick to look for him everywhere...but I was disappointed.

Does it mean that He had came back and visited me?...what are the purpose of those dreams that I had?

I call his name everyday and talked to him everyday...sometime I thought I was going crazy and mumbling like a mental illness.  The reason I did that...because I try to contact him.  I used the menthod to relax mind before i go sleep but ever since I saw him in my dreams ...it doesn't happen anymore.

Did he moves on with his lifeafter?  Do you think he will ever forgets about me?....I know those are stupid questions that I had asked.

I'm so desperate to know how he is doing and so.....I miss and love him so much....

Any advice is great appreciation.

Sincerely thanks
Bravi

wayoutwhere said I guess my biggest question right now is if I'm more in the world of the living or the world of the dead.
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well, you're cool too. I remember some years back we had a similar question to the board, someone said "how do u know if you're dead or not?" boy, did I ever take off on that one! ha ha! not trying to make light of your situation. the fear inside us is there to work thru and we can get rid of fear by working it thru mentally, see what it's about, one fear at a time. you're fine, these questions come up for you and there's nothing wrong with seeking the answers outside of yourself, but eventually the answers come from inside of you. the two worlds are coming closer together right now, but don't worry, you won't be overwhelmed with too much at one time. you are probably ultra sensitive to it right now, and it causes identity crashes temporarily..that is what I hear in your words. crashes are a little uncomfortable, but I do believe you will be just fine, to continue reading and studying of other's experiences from touching this other dimension of ourselves. cheers! enjoy it! it's over so fast (almost a grandma over here, at least I have hope!) alysia

I dunno...It's so hard to explain, especially without looking like a crazy person. All I know is I'm able to sense and see things that most other people can't. I guess I'll just read posts and respond when I relate.


Thanks Everyone!

Ryan

Hmm Blink, for me it's not that easy. Since I have started doing my mind journeys it's exactly the problem of "walk between the worlds" as I feel not really in one of them, but more between them. Today I wanted the first time to stay there, but I was too aware of my body and it sucks me back. "There" is the perspective of all is consciousness including the physical. But the physical is such strong through the influence of my body. This in between state makes both perspectives appearing less real.
Spooky

I feel awake, but it's funny a stranger came up to me the other day out of the blue and told me to wake up.  I get random people saying random stuff to me on occasion. I'm not sure if I should see them as messengers or what. What I do know is that I am able to see the people that are stuck in between. I ride the train quite often. It's funny, I see and sense more spirits on the train than anywhere else. What I do notice most about the world of the living and the world of the dead is a on going war. The war is not between the two worlds but rather good and  evil...or so I think. I can't actually see the battles but I can sense them. I some times see Angels. Late at night during battles they stand on every street corner. They don't have wings or halos, but I can just tell they are angels. I can also spot demons. It's weird I know...I'm not sure if what I'm seeing is real or just a pigment of my imagination. I've had to come to some conclusion about the stuff I have seen and experienced for awhile...to find peace with it...This is the first time I've talked openly about any of it...It's weird to me....but maybe someone out there feels and sees the same stuff...let me know...thanks..ry