Hi guys,

I'm very new in this exploration and I feel ashamed to say this but I'm still rather skeptical about the whole idea of the afterlife. I'm sorry if I offend anyone with that.

Ever since I can remember, I've been absolutely petrified of dying, or, more specifically, not existing in any way. These fears come to me even now, usually when I'm alone with my thoughts, like when I'm in bed before I fall asleep.

When I first met my now husband, our conversation revolved around death and what happens when we die. He is very skeptical about any kind of existence beyond this one, even more so than me. I think he would like to believe but he's a bit more rational in his thinking than I am. Despite this, we still have conversations about it now and then.

He knows I'm very scared of dying. He used to think it was no more than anyone else's fear of death but he quickly realised that this fear grips me quite often and rather relentlessly. I don't want to feel like this as it is beginning to take over my life, especially since the birth of my daughter a few months ago.

I've come to the conclusion that perhaps my intense fear and constant thoughts of death are trying to push me to explore possibilities.

So here I am.

I would really like to believe that this whole existence here serves a purpose. I've always found it difficult to understand why we would be here, live 70 odd years then cease to exist. What's the point in that?

I'm sorry I've just looked at the subject I wrote for this post and I've realised that I'm getting carried away here! If you've read this far, thanks!

Just a bit more...

I love my husband and daughter more than I ever imagined love could feel like, if that makes sense. I feel my husband and I have an inexplicable bond, despite a 22 year age gap. I would like to know, if anyone is able to answer this, if you join your partner in the afterlife? I would hate to think that, yes there is an afterlife, but I can't be with my husband in it. I can't bear the thought of experiencing things without him. It may sound a bit soppy but he is part of me.

Ok this is the end of my story here!! If anyone has any comments that may help my exploration I'd be very glad to listen.

Thanks for reading.

Thank you for taking the time to respond to my lengthy post!

I appreciate your opinion, it's exactly the kind of thing my husband would say!

But there's something that won't let me believe this, aside from fear. It's something I feel obligated to explore.

Thanks for the info. I guess what you mentioned would be a good place to start.

One foot in front of the other! Here goes.

I'd love to feel secure in the knowledge that death isn't final and that I will join my husband on the other side. My problem is that belief doesn't seem to come easily and I tend to look more for evidence than what's commonly believed.

What was mentioned above about energy being changeable, not destructible, is a theory I've been working on in my mind for a long time. But I feel it's insufficient. I need more.

I seem to have an unquenchable thirst for this knowledge, and I'm doing my best to find it!

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Keep at it, it's not easy - especially here! for they believe you must do everything, yourself.

Mediums are usually the first dose of afterlife knowledge people generally get, but unfortunately 95% + are complete fakes.

a face to face peice of unique information supplied by another person is generally the best type of evidence we can hope for.

I would check out a well credited medium, but dont fall for any common things they may blurt out, but if they get your name straight off etc - you cant help but be quite heavily assured that the information is coming from source's which are beyond those of a normal human.

I suffer from a obsessive fear of death, but like yourself something within drove me to investigate deeper into lifes biggest mystery.

As Spitfire said, unfortunatley most mediums are complete frauds (Derek Acorah cough cough) who prey on innocent peoples insecurities but there have been a few who in my research who have blown me away with their gift.

The following mediums are worth deeper research, Helen Duncan, Leslie Flintt, Edgar Cayce and Leonore Piper, and Gordon Smith, who Spitfire said is the most accurate medium on gods green earth.

Vicky, we're all teachers.

Love, Mairlyn

I wouldn't worry alot about not knowing anyone on the other side that well...we've got (or had, I think I scared him off) a ghost in this house named Ted, who none of us ever heard of before, who's quite the Chatty Cathy.  When my daughter was still living at home he'd yack away at her about all kinds of stuff, about some of which she hadn't even asked!  (He'd apparently been dead awhile and was bored...).  Obviously, if you've lost someone close you want to talk to them, but not having a close relationship with someone on the other side doesn't mean you can't find someone to communicate with and give you verification.