Uno wrote on Jun 20th, 2017 at 2:42pm:Thanks for the comments and food for thought 1796.
"My three best male friends are Christian atheists."
Believes in God but doesn't act like he exists, had not thought about the term Christian atheist before. I've grown a faith in God gradually, and have started to realize that creation is awesome, in the true sense of the word. I used to consider Jesus as an astral creation due to people giving energy to an image of what they believe in, but have become open to at least the possibility that there is more to it, quite opposite of the past. I simply cannot deny the teaching you have presented about love and forgiveness, it makes too much sense and there is so much heart to it. I'm contented to be around Christians now and I'm glad there are unconventional Christians too.
I used to have very similar thoughts regarding Jesus. This was before I did honest research into the matter and learned that there is more evidence for his existence than for most other historical figures of that time. In fact, questioning Jesus' historical existence is laughed at even by most secular historians. Further research and contemplation made it clear that the biblical accounts of Jesus' life and deity were likewise true. My personal doubts mainly stemmed from a strong anti-Christian bias and trust in deceptive sources spreading disinformation.
Since surrendering myself to God and putting my faith in Christ, I've seen more tangible spiritual growth and had more profound spiritual experiences in a matter of months than I experienced in over a decade of meditation, out of body travel, occult/metaphysical studies and other "spiritual" practices. I say this not to brag or even talk about myself, but to witness to you that He is the truth and the way so that you may one day be with Him too.