Everything is completely interconnected within God's being/Spirit and Love.  Hence the Oneness.  I've experienced this state of Oneness, though probably in a very limited capacity since i was connected to a body at the time.

  At the same time, everything is also individual and unique.  This is just as important as the Oneness/complete interconnection, otherwise existence for God would be quite boring and lonely. 

  There was a point in God's awareness and remembrance, when It was all alone with It's own thoughts and company. 

   It was an unfulfilling and achingly lonely state, so the Creator decided to create companions out of Itself. It imbued each part of self, each companion with self awareness, unique individuality, and the ability to choose for itself.   

    The Creators that i know and love, the original Source, and the First returned Child/Companion, are very different than the Creator you are projecting onto others Alan.  These Creators are filled with Universal, unconditional, pure Love--a Love that is the highest expression of the most complete, pure, and perfectly balanced/blended Mother-Father Love. 

   This is not to say that these never experience something akin to temporary anger or frustration, especially when some of their children so stubbornly buck against reality and continue to try to hurt each other and themselves. 

  But overall, it's more a resigned sadness, but with the knowing that eventually it will work out.  And there is far more joy and delight experienced than any of the above. Especially when one of the children choose to consciously re-merge back with Source and the Christ Disk.

    Alan, i'm not sure what is going on with you, but i would suggest taking some quiet time to talk and commune with only the real Yeshua (Jesus), and also engage in some healthy grounding activities.