hi. im Julia. im only 12 and very close to death of a weird heart  condition that is wiping me otui yet will not allow me to relax. actively exerting themselves while ovwertired just trying to keep alive. the pressure is so bad its like im sweating and shivering at the same time like feverish.lots of scary faltering and ripping right up the arm from the left and right  side of chest and middle. my heart and lungs and tingling and spamssare excricuating. ive only stumbled upon these thingns and the concepts of angels and guides are all new to me, . this condition worsened, butbecame life threatening this is very sudden. im afraid of everything. space, new states of being, losign my body, what it will feel like and jesus and afterlife are new, and seem unbelievable despie all ive read thus far.im afraid of losing my body, what it will feel like  feel like, wher I will go, who will save me, or even if its al real or not because it seems like it just wont reveal itself ot me. ive tried so many things already but nonthing has worked a waste of effort because my body is so bad. im at home with no assistance because we are are poor and they don't know how to handle this. my parents don't believe in any of this so they wont buy any rescources. the ones ive tried already  were numerous and yielded no results. im scared of the unknown and it only gets worse. my body and mind are biologcallly not allowin g me to cooperate and I cant remember how it feels to not be twisted and contorted in pai and freezing and shallow breathing and so tired I wan tto rub my eyes evry few seconds. this is taking a lot to type. just help me. I don't know what to do. I don't know if Ill make it because my heart and shoulder and back are all pulling andn pushing and heart going boom. this is my last attempt please help me. I can tfeel any spirit guide and im scared of other sates and places of losing my house a d mother and family and not knowing anything. I wan tot go straight to focus 27 im too scared of being in agony both inside and out lost for long. if I could id be crying and screaming. its too horrible.

edit. I need yo lnow how it feels to be ou og body cuz it seems rather scary to me ans I need a heads up/

Hello Julia:

Sorry to hear about what you’re experiencing.  I don’t know if there is anything I can say that will help a lot, but perhaps this will help a bit.

It is possible that it was known before you incarnated that you might have to go through what you’re going through. I’m not suggesting free will doesn’t exist, but your Soul might’ve become aware of the possibility/probability of developing the condition you have. Nevertheless, your Soul chose to take on this incarnation because you were willing to take on the challenge, knew that it would help you grow, and knew that in the end everything would be more than fine once you rejoin the afterlife.

Regarding fear of the unknown, yes, our minds do try to find security in what we already know even if what we have at the moment isn’t so great.  We don’t have to consider the possibility of death in order to see that a fear of change is possible.

During my spiritual growth there have been a number of beliefs and psychological issues I held onto because I didn’t believe it would be good to let go of them, and each time I did I found out that it was highly worthwhile to do so.  Rather than running into something unpleasant, more wisdom, freedom of mind, love and peace came into my life.

I believe the same is true after we die as long as we don’t get caught up in some erroneous belief system or a negative state of mind.  If needed, an aware person such as yourself can ask for help and receive it.

Albert

julia,

Is there anyone who has already crossed over that you loved and trusted? Most of us, I hear, will be met by loved ones, some of them whom we don't even remember here. Often, people find themselves in a loving presence after they cross over. Even though you are fearful now, that does not mean that you will not experience the love and the welcome that others do. I believe that no matter where you might find yourself, you can think of what you know to be beautiful and true, and you will find that place, that thing, that person. Kind of like in the Wizard of Oz, when Dorothy clicks her red heels and says, There's no place like home.

I wish that you had some spiritual counselor nearby, or a social worker who is experienced in helping people in your situation. But, know that you are loved and cared for, beyond anything you can imagine, and that when you pass over you will be going to your true home. We will all be there with you someday, you know.

Yes, turning into inner peace when one is experiencing pain can be difficult. The ability to do so is partly a matter of how spiritually developed one is. The more one lets go of underlying thought patterns that interfere, the more success one will have.

One thing that might help is remembering moments when you felt love, feel the love as much as you can, and then go with it even after you stop thinking about the subject that helped you tune into love.

I wouldn't worry about expanding more than you want to. That probably won't happen. You probably also don't need to think in terms of going out of body.

julia,

If you are alone and you are afraid that you are about to die, please call the telephone help line that is available in your area. There is no reason why you should have to be in pain and discomfort which is unbearable to you. That's really all that I can suggest right at this moment.

betson wrote on Oct 9^th, 2013 at 4:10pm:

I hope so. I have never even heard of getting out of ym body until a little while ago which is unfortunate, since I am being biologically prevented from doing so by this now. so I suppose imagining it will have to do. oddly enough in my dreams im either well again or not even there, like watching a movie. in places that seem familiar, but at the same time unrecognizable. like my house, but more rooms and hallways. im afraid iys all fantasy srill. the word delusion comes to mind.

Oh Julia,

“Imagining will have to do.”  Oh really? Then if imagining is so second rate, why did Albert Einstein have such a very active brain in the areas that imagining take place? Why did he bother with imagining?  Why did his brain have more connections between the side that processes imagining and the side that deals with the outer logical reality (much  than other people have)?

Imagining is just a gateway that allows you to get into  areas that will answer the questions you have. The best way to get into these overlooked sources of wisdom is to relax / think of being loved unconditionally.

We’re not kidding you, Julia. Everyone here has had experiences that prove this (except maybe Carl but he’s another case entirely. Hi Carl, my apologies. )

Imagine yourself protected and loved, Julia, because You are, despite the tricks your physical body is currently playing on you.

Betson

Found you, Julia. The artwork you put on there is fun, liked it.