It looks to me as if you want to start over and over again and don't want to build on the information that is available around the world.
To me it looks as if you don't want to move on and keep stuck at the beginning.

I didn't realize when I first posted this, that Alexander was director at TMI now.  That is quite a change from neurosurgery (which is fine).  I would hope that he brings his scientific background with him to create reasonable controlled studies in consciousness. 

It  is clear that what we perceive (butterfly girls, earthworm views, etc.) is very much influenced by our belief systems and perceptual abilities when we are in a mental plane.  So one thing I don't look for personally is to adopt another person's idea of heaven. 

One of my closest friends is a neurosurgeon in NY.  They are a small tight-knit community (not many training slots in university programs).  I plan to get some information about him, just out of interest.

Matthew- did you get any additional info on him?

R

Matthew