Relating to ACIM, the influence of extremely lacking in Light consciousnesses who seek to mislead, limit, etc, and to the conversations between Kathy and i--on another thread about enlightenment, i shared a link to an article i wrote talking about meditation and the importance of the right kind of meditation.
Here is what i wrote, and it very much relates to this whole thread and the things that Albert and i have said,
Quote:* I have deep experience with the above. I started experimenting with meditation from about the age of 13, but without real wisdom and insight, let alone enough personal balance. I was already a more sensitive person, but going willy nilly into meditation without the right knowledge and wisdom opened me up to the influence of some slow vibratory/limiting influences. It took me years to fully dis-engage from these, and i spent much of my childhood being severely suicidal partly because of these influences. I had a rather difficult childhood in some respects, and wasn't attuned enough to love and wasn't balanced enough to have gone into meditation the way i had-e.g. without specifically attuning to love and gratitude and without those specific affirmations.
Btw, quantities of alcohol and some drugs also open one up more to these and allow self to be unduly influenced. And of course, unloving and more particularly negative intentions do so as well.
I didn't realize until many years later, that i was so suicidal partly because of the influence of some very lacking in Light beings. For a long time, i thought it solely as a lack and weakness within me.
It was during my reading of ACIM, when a very psychic friend of mine, told me sort of out of the blue, "I saw a very large and very dark being around you and it's trying to influence you. " She also said, "you have a lot of Light within you and so have attracted this attention very strongly"
When i finally disentangled myself from ACIM, partially by calling on the help of Divine Forces, i started to get some guidance about how much earlier when i had experimented with meditation without wisdom, i had let myself become even more open to such influences.
One time Becky had a dream wherein she saw her ultra religious and rather emotionally imbalanced and unhappy mother "praying", but instead of energetically connecting to God, because of her negativity and lack of Love for others and herself, Becky saw that she was connecting energetically with what looked like humanoid Reptilian Beings, and that these Beings were influencing her mother strongly, helping her to stay stuck in her life of isolation, unhappiness, and fear.
If you haven't been in that kind of very dark space, you don't realize how hard it can be to get out of.
It is easy and tempting to shove the shadow side of life and Reality under the rug. I use to do it, and when i did, i was more influenced. But when i faced my fears, accepted their reality without fear, and called on Divine Forces for help, not only did i become more aware of this side of Reality and what they are and are about, but i stopped being influenced.
A big part of the latter was also about opening myself up to Love in the more universal and unconditional sense.
So when people like Kathy tell me glibly that things like, oh, it's all just information and you can choose what to do with it or not--I have to look back at my life, my struggles, and guidance, and express patience with such casual, easy answers that while they have some little bit of relative truth, really don't touch the surface of what Reality and the
human condition is about.
. ACIM is more than just a book, it's an energetic field, that if you allow yourself to get involved with it, it makes it that much easier for such lacking in Light forces to influence you. It's almost like stating a specific affirmation of, "I open myself to and ask for the influence of the most lacking in Light Beings there are."
If this process of spiritual growth and awareness was so "easy" or there weren't strong lacking in Light beings involved with this world, then this world would not be a place filled with so much suffering, violence, disrespect, and at times unspeakable horrors. If it was so easy, so many more of us humans would be near enlightened or fully enlightened, or at the very least much more consistently happy.
Some people speak from experience and/or direct guidance, and some speak from lack of experience and direct guidance. It's usually the latter wherein we are speaking from dogma or ignorance about something.
I'm very passionate about this whole subject, not just based on my own life experience and suffering, but because i came here to counter balance these lacking in Light forces and their influence, so that this world can heal and know Oneness and happiness. I had to personally go through it myself, in order to see what i'm up against in a sense. To speak from real wisdom and knowledge about it.
As Albert has mentioned, it is not "loving" to allow these beings to do their works and influence people without calling them out. Those who are aware of the problems, must speak of the problems and of the solutions. The solution is always two fold. First,
awareness without fear, and then Love.
Love them and all who err, even the most lacking in Light and cruel beings deserve Love. Feel Love for them and compassion for their suffering and send prayers that they can find the strength within themselves to change their ways for the better so that they too can become happy and at peace.