You know, the fact that I still do not know for sure is a big one for me and that I haven't been able to explore at all so I have no way of knowing for sure. The fact that so many people in my life are heavily religious isn't really helping, and their stories of what happens are often scary and depressing situations where I can't win either way. The possibility that either they're right or that there's nothing at all on the other side like my parents have believed are probably two big ones for me that I still haven't been able to overcome yet. Another one is being afraid of not achieving any of my goals in life, which often gets me down and not even wanting to try, although that's a conundrum in and of itself because if I were to let that stop me from beginning, then before i know it I'll be in my 80s and realize that I haven't done anything. The third one is that I sometimes get suicidal urges, possibly due to my asperger's syndrome and possibly genetic since other members of my family have had those occasionally, and that I might act on it and as result, get stuck in focus 23 and not move on to focus 27. Finally, I hope that when I'm old and decrepit people are still practicing retrievals regularly, because I have found that I'm almost never aware that I'm dreaming when I'm dreaming and have had difficulty inducing any kind of lucid dream and that worries me about possibly getting stuck in focus 23. I've had some dreams that were somewhat reassuring in the past while seeking guidance though, but other than that it's really hard to tell.