Bardo
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Hello all, A couple of years ago, I posted a description of a visit that I had with my mother shortly after she died. The visit took the form of a comfortable conversation in her sunny livingroom. It occurred at my "request", after I had laid down and attempted a retrieval of a friend who had just passed. I asked that my mother assist, and imagined her doing so, and things went from there. It was a very cathartic experience, giving me the opportunity to mourn her passing, which I had not had the opportunity or ability to do up to that time. The encounter lasted over half an hour by the clock, and as soon as I came out of my relaxed state, I jumped up and wrote a long email to my sister, recounting all that I had heard and seen, except for a coulple of very personal items that I did not think appropriate to her. I only wish that I had thought to record those other items, because it would have gone so far to relieve my doubts! Long and short of it, less than a year ago, my sister suffered a stroke and went on life support (at 50). I went to be with her family and we took her off life support when it was clear that her brain was dead. Then we sat for two days as she lived on, waiting to see if she would pass, or settle into a persistant vegitative state. During one of those long, sad days, as I sat around her bedside, holding her hand, while her kids and husband and I remembered her many endearing qualities (we didn't mention the other aspects of her personality, oddly enough), I had a sudden and very vivid "poke" at my memory, which reminded me that one of the things that my mother had said during our "chat" was about my sister. I had made some comment about my sister, and my mother said something very close to "don't worry, she is going to be here soon enough". I remember thinking that this was odd, and that it was one thing that I was not going to mention to my sister when I awoke. And I remember explicitely not mentioning it when I wrote her. But I had forgotten about it, until I was sitting by my sister's deathbed. I jumped up and had to leave the room it was so shocking. Now, of course, I doubt that I ever heard my mother say it, because I did not record it afterwords. Is it reasonable to have a spirit make reference to the future? I am working hard to learn to consciously explore the afterlife, using Bruces book and tapes. Its hard because it does not come naturally, but I am making progress, I think. My sister died the next day, and instead of grief, I felt an immediate glowing warmth in my chest, which radiated out from me and became all-encompassing for a few minutes, before slowly fading into the expected grief.
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