I am sorry to hear of the passing of your college friend, Bill, Doc. I join those who assist you here, with prayers/thoughts/hopes/wishes for his release from all pain, and for your own peace, and for that of his family and friends left behind.

Hello Matthew,

My prayers also go for Bill and you.

I believe the universe's underlying energies of PUL are much stronger than any pedagogy.

I removed my post to you about attempting to find out answers to your concerns, and sent it as a PM.

Bets

Thank you all,

The more information I get the less I feel in my gut that a retrieval is needed.  And I feel good about that.  Bets had PM'd me about an encounter prior to autopsy results.  It turned out to be accurate.

Bill had pancreatitis - a condition when the digestive enzymes spill from inflammation and wreak havoc on the body.  Untreated the death rate approaches 100% in certain instances.  I don't think he knew he had this.  Its a shame, because he was only in his 40s.

I have only gotten snippets and images of him in my mind's eye.  A greeting he used to give me years ago (saying "Matt the Hat" - which was ironic to say the least since I don't wear hats), and pictures of him.  The images have regressed to him looking very much like I remember him from his 20s, and definitely grinning/smiling. 

Is this real contact?  I don't know.  I've been talking to him in my mind.  Telling him what I've learned about death - to follow love, give up attachments that pull you down.  And somewhat selfishly, I've told him that I have tasked him to make verifiable contact with me that I can cherish and share with others.

I said to him, "damn it, if we were close life long friends, the least you could do is help me break through this divide between my conscious awareness and the spirit world! - I'm not letting you off the hook on this one."

Of course, I have to have any self imposed blocks to my perception removed - and only I can do this.

I want to thank you all for helping.  I'm convinced in my gut now that he was happy, that none of this was expected, and I have reached out and gotten many of his friends together to create a memorial where music well be played and memories will be shared.

Thanks again,

Matthew

Matthew:

Did you notice a feeling behind the images of Bill? As if they were projected by a conscious being?

When people make contact with other people they aren't inclined to doubt it even though they don't receive information they can verify, because life has taught them that such contact is possible.

A similar thing takes place when making contact with spirits. After a while your experience shows you that contact is possible, and when they show you images you aren't inclined to doubt that they come from spirits. 

Sure it's possible that our own mind can create images, but I've found that more often than not the images I see come from spirits rather than my memories and imagination.