b2
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An odd dream. I don't remember how I got there, but I was in a big pool of water. There were people along the sides of the pool. As I entered the water, and I don't know how that happened, I realized I was sinking rapidly to the bottom and I did not seem to have any strength in my arms.
I was pulled down and there was an odd 'darkness' to the experience. I was sinking and knew I couldn't fight it and took a big breath of water, at which point I realized in my dream that I was going to die...but I could see, with my eyes open, several people looking over the edge, and I 'knew' they were either alarmed and would try to help me, as I hoped, or that I would pass out and die. I believed they would not reach me before I went unconscious, but as I sank to the bottom of the pool I had a moment of serenity, a feeling that someone might come rescue me, even after all this.
But, I was breathing water (not feeling it, just being aware of breathing). Simultaneously, I began to 'rise' back from sleep into conscious awareness. The amount of 'fear' in the dream was slight, but enough to wake me up, but with an interesting 'slowness' to it, so that I was conscious of awakening from the dream and why -- not like waking, startled, as one can do from a dream of 'falling', etc. It was a feeling of slowly 'rising', smoothly, into waking consciousness.
When I awoke, I realized I had experienced somebody's death, and vaguely wondered if this could be a past life, and wondered why this happened. It was an interesting experience, and I concluded that it was a peaceful death.
Once the moment of realization occurred, because the 'giving up' was so quick (could not fight the 'weighted down' feeling as I sunk, absolutely no strength in my arms or legs, sank straight down with no struggle), it was a feeling of complete powerlessness.
I have been listening to a life between lives cd for a few nights, so maybe this was a glimpse of something. But, it proved to me that if it is quick enough, without struggle, 'death awareness' is not necessarily a miserable thing. The transition between the 'death' and waking up was smooth enough to make me wonder if that is how it can occur. You can be drowning one minute, and wake up somewhere else the next. Strange.
additional note: this dream happened late at night, after a day in which I not only drove by a cemetery (unusual for me), but walked beside it while viewing a prospective gathering/meeting location. Additionally, I watched a television show, that same day (I don't watch much), which partially focused on a 'goth' family who liked having picnics in graveyards, which was an odd coincidence for me. I'm sure these images triggered the dream.
Because of the smooth transition, I also wonder if it was possible that the moment that I was 'drowning' might also have been one in which I was already transitioning into waking consciousness, and becoming aware of my breathing, and so 'translated' this experience into an entire 'drowning' scenario, which merged into a natural awakening. This seems to be a strong possibiiity to me.
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