Seraphis1 wrote on Mar 4th, 2010 at 10:15pm:Quote:Analysis of important symbolism in the session.
The plot thickens… I just realize that there may be more significance to the Lamp than I thought:
Projecting Love Energy Exercise:
…Victorian box lamp nestled in a kind of pillow like formation… cream color glow… on right side… thick white milk splattered over a bowl..
The Victorian box lamp had a four-sided sloped roof-like construction… it was black… this was a street lamp that was probably oil-fired… and lit by hand as scenes in old Victorian custom movies.
It occurs to me that the source of my problem with seeing the Divine Light as it really is… is locked up in that symbol…
Clearly I have Victorian values… and belief systems connected with religion that goes deep… they may be diametrically opposed to The Truth… which then acts like a block…
I had a very successful lifetime in Victorian England… the Divine Light is encased in those beliefs… but, what were they? I don’t remember what those beliefs were… since I was a member of the then Illuminati… I was a Deist and not necessarily a Christian… that I am certain of… but I was also not English… though I was raised there as a child… I was German… a descendent of Teutonic Knights… militaristic Prussian orientation… rigid!!! I am rigid… I have some firm rock solid belief that keeps the Divine Light encased in a long forgotten, antiquated and rigid construct… what was it???
S.
Seraphis1 wrote on Mar 5th, 2010 at 9:23am:[quote author=586E796A7B6362783A0B0 link=1267667272/4#4 date=1267755314][quote author=58083A0 link=1267667272/3#3 date=1267747009]
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Perhaps, just pause, make no decision now. Let spirit guide you to the right moment for you.
Hi b2: Sage words. I woke up this morning much calmed down and I realized BM's AKG has tools. When all else fails follow instructions.
p. 108 - Using Heart Intelligence Exercise to ask a burning question.
S.
Well I did the “Using Heart Intelligence” and asking the burning question… what was the Prussian Code which causes my rigidity.
This answer is very different from and far removed from Victorian England and my Prussian roots… tho marginally linked in a chain of cause and effect and didn’t come in the session didn’t come but throughout the day pieces of it began to surface and the interpreter kept giving up the root that became roots and a great tangle until I reached the what I believe was my first entry into the physical universe… from the
Causal Plane on which I was one
‘horny thought form’, I didn’t seem to have body per se… but I was chasing my female
‘thought form’ counter part around the Causal Plane… saying to her… ‘Give it to me. Give it to me.’ and she kept saying ‘No’… to make a long story short she disappears down a vortex and like the idiot I am I follow her down and the disaster begins… everything got tangled in infidelities, rivalries and wars over women… I got erotic/lust love and Divine love all tangled up and was not able to differentiate between the two. There was no Robert Monroe and Hemi-sync at the time.
So now I have love and death, destruction, betrayal all linked together… I lost those battles… so love was a bad thing… more lifetime come and I never get the two disentangled… I end these lives in death by combat or suicides and am frustrated with love..
Finally, I have to suppress love to gain power… to gain a crown I have to murder the several people who are ahead of me in the line of succession… until I become the only legitimate heir to the throne… how convenient…
The Prussian militaristic experience involves a code of brutal obedience to the leader… no love is possible… the code of the warrior… is ’ask no quarter and give no quarter…’ rooted deep in my subconscious is the knowledge built over the centuries that love is a deadly enemy of survival, so it wasn’t hard to accept that code.
But, I am just a child, and removed to England where I fall in love… and everything changes… but, in a jealous rage I strangle my wife flee to Denmark… but, she did not die… she wants me back and that story ends well for the first time in a whole bunch of centuries…
But, I now confront the problem of destroying those roots which like a great oak go everywhere in the soil of my subconscious and unconscious… but, now I know… erotic/lustful love and Divine love are two different things… God IS Love… which permeates everything and that is the Yoga… merging my ego/love with the God/Love… QED!!
S.