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12/15/09 ~ Morning Session:
I am posting this because it may benefit someone to know that these exercise can take one very deep into one’s personal psychology (unfortunately this personal psychology does not confine itself to this life… as a matter of fact in this moment you are the summation of forces of everything you have ever done through out your personal existence as a probe whenever that began eons ago)… it is not intended to imply a mandatory need for such deep exploration and revelation to accomplish whatever it is “YOU” need personally for your own advancement in present time.
I have discovered through this exercise that I am a very repressed personality in “this” lifetime (there is a difference between repression and suppression …i.e… suppression when held long enough becomes repression).
Debriefing Questions:
Were you able to reexperience the feeling of love?
Yes.
Were you able to allow that feeling to build up within you?
I am at the beginning of being able to allow myself to experience love again in a constructive way.
Did you feel it more in some places in your body than others? If so, where?
No.
Did you have any impressions, visual, auditory, or other during the exercise?
As my Heart Chakra engaged the scene of a small child running into a large room filled with people, into the arms of a loving mother… in that moment I really, really, really, love my mother… it was my birthday party! (later is different) Rome… then there is the love of Rome… as an idea… an ideal… Rome first and always… (just as I feel now, America... America first and always... the idea of America... the ideal of America) but, life in those days was not allowed to be idyllic… then came violence, death, ostracization… fear of assassination… development of defenses… emotions real and imagined… murdered father… threat of assassination and death… the long and the short of it is that I lived to rule and gain power which I abused magnificently… but, the truth is that we are the judge, jury and executioner’s of ourselves.. thus in this life I intended to truly brutalize myself to repay that debt to the universal order thru karma… now I have been given a dispensation through the teachings of Robert A. Monroe and his follower Bruce Moen… I am eternally grateful for this opportunity to be free again.
S.
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