Thomas reminds me of something. it seems like more and more we are all saying basically the same thing, just different words, we are like one in spirit.
there seems to be a huge influx of light into this board of late. especially today. it's not just from one person, it seems to be coming from off the words from many different posts.
Thomas, your experience at TMI is similar to my own so I see the truth of it, that your own self was your guide. this is to say we are creating our own journeys, but at this experience's juncture, I was not aware I was doing so.
it was quite fun! I had to include it in my book it was so mind blowing.
Although, I still receive guidance when I need it from other beings from time to time, as I can accept it.
One day I was thinking I wanted to go obe. frequently I would lay in bed and during the night start up those wonderful vibrations which would awaken me.
I always thought it was some outside influence..didn't know why it was happening. at these times I would awaken fully and not go obe.
so I pondered and read about astral projection and one day I asked the right question. I somehow was answered by asking the right question. I asked, as if I were talking to a guide, but really I had no sense there were guides, I just pretended someone was listening.
I asked if these others I read of are going obe, why can't I? here's what I want. I want to see my body laying on the bed from above position, I want to see in 3 dimensional, not as I see myself in a mirror. Is this possible I asked.
then I simply went on about my business, forgetting I'd asked the question in most serious manner I might add.
sometime after that question I had an intense dual consciousness obe experience. I seemed to be traveling through space as an energy body at intense speed. that was the only sensation at first and no mental thoughts, just the feeling of being in a current, like an electric current, traveling as a being.
when I arrived somewhere a 3d image of my own face appeared. I studied the contours of my face in 3d, it was not like looking in a mirror of the flat reflection, it was virtual reality like.
This current thing at first took me into two light orbs which were in fact, an emanation from my physical eyes. the light in the eyes was very bright and tended to make them look beautiful, so I became awed by the sight of my own eyes. so finally the eyes stopped glowing to become just physical eyes, but still it was in 3d. the consciousness of my body gazed back at the consciousness of my shall I say other self, or higher self? anyway, there was two of me.
so then we had a short dialogue, just me and myself. the body me was frightened of the other me which only was sending love to me.
You're beautiful! I said to me. the couch me turned away and said leave me alone, I am feeling separated from beauty and having this valid experience. you are messing up my valid experience of feeling small and limited and ugly and guilty of some crime.
the body me rejected the loving me because the loving me was perfect and I was jealous of myself! LOL! as the couch me, I was sitting on a couch as shown, I remember thinking, she's always there, out there, while I have to live this miserable life without her!
Higher self then grew very sad and compassionate for lower self's troubles. She seemed to say, I had some work to do soon to find the truth about myself, that I was her and she was me, and we were one, and everything was going to be just fine, I would see that I had been living in illusions since my childhood that it was not real, everything that happened was purely for the sake of a journey to reallization I was the light that streamed from my eyes of pure love.
after that experience I gloated for days thinking about obes, and how I must be running around giving others the impression I was rejecting their love for me because I myself didn't believe I was lovable, some false programing beliefs from childhood.
so yea, it was a lot of work, but I guided myself in a way...I still think there may have been other forces with me unseen, to give to me this experience and help me get free from some beliefs, but not instantly free. takes a long time to learn to love this life, and to love yourself and appreciate your journey.