Blink,

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Alan, anger is an emotion I avoid whenever possible. I see now that I personalized this question too much, allowed my good friend, ego, to get involved.

However, I found that when I surrendered to this anger there was more beneath it than I supposed. First, there were the tears I had not yet cried for all of these countless victims. I knew something was blocking my meditations. I think that was it.

Before I knew it I was flying among the stars again. I saw a huge grid-like thing out there. It seemed endless and interconnected. I felt that there was a common center. It was not like a wheel with spokes exactly, because it was so multilayered that you could not see the center connection. But I had a feeling that every single "strand" was directly connected to the center....in fact, the realization was very visual, of how each human being could actually be closer to God than to each other, at least, within this context, which I saw as a kind of ultimate reality, within the darkness in which all the colors stood out.

It was beautiful and a little frightening to see it that way and, perhaps because I was sad, it felt profound, like an entire world dropping away. Like a veil dropping away.

There was nothing personal about it. It was just "what I saw" "out there" when I closed my eyes.

So, now, I wonder, maybe I am correct. Maybe we are all only one step "away" from "God" if we only knew it.

Yes, George, thank you also for your comment. One who walks with God every day, who would that be? Perhaps each of us, if we only knew it.

The fact is, it feels like we can get lost out in those stars. I'm not sure it's true.

love, blink

Hi blink  The suffering are the closest to God as they need him more than those that are not suffering,thats what our preist told us at the mental health centre, as we are suffering and God is closer to us than others because we need him more.

Love and God bless      love juditha

I don't see how any body can be closer to god than another.  I see us all as being god.  IMO, the mother Teresa's or Ghandi's of the world are no closer to god than the down and out drunk in the ditch.  I do not believe in separation no matter how many people may think they are better than others.
I have never been patriotic and yet lately I have been getting a bit upset at how everyone is picking on America.  If they are jealous and want a country like America then why don't they make one.  Look at the stuff China is pulling or England or Israel or you name it now-a-days and yet America stays the great Satan.  America does not send it's children out wrapped in bombs and yet I have heard people excuse that behavior in the name of, well, "desperate people do desperate things."  Mothers come on the tv and proclaim proudly that they are raising their kids to be suicide bombers.  If a person gets some disease on the other side of the world then it must be something those evil American scientist invented to wipe them out.  I think if people insist on being victims then they can have what they choose.
So I am not saying that America is without it's problems, goodness knows, I think America could stand to mind it's own business, but other countries are "NO better".

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Hi Lucy      You tell me  that my suffering and me needing God more,means im justifying suffering.
and what do you mean by ego.

Seriously explain what you mean.

love and God bless love juditha