Nice link at bottom of page also.


Hello

Im 31 years old, Im a pretty smart guy I've always kind of tried to remain a rabbit inside and have enjoyed, enjoying life with interest and putting my earnestness into life. Im also very found of technology space, interesting things really interest me. It could be any subject I guess you get the idea.

I found out about Robert Monroe whan I was 19, I lived in a flat in the docklands of London and his book was under skink, investigation led me to the gateway course and I have enjoyed it.

When your born you don't get a manual which says this is the way to think do or behave so as to live life in the right way, there are laws but generally if you want to smoke cigeretees eat kabaas, sleep with a different person every weekend, you can, you can of course do fair worse in and to socity.

When I was younger things seemed larger and "cool", I used to enjoy looking at lego, small models, I remember there was a toy which was a sealed box with a small car  you could control underneith it with a magnet.

When you get to a certain age Im not sure what that age is but I think a lot of people decide to run there lives by certain rules.

-Wont kill any body
-Wont really do damage to some body elses life
-Honesty

And at some stage, which will be forced on those that dont do it themselfs,
-Slow down and enjoy the moment.

After I did the monroe course I found a difference in my perception and of course that also means interaction with the world, a better interaction, more in touch.


It has to be said I wounder how I would be now with out it, maybe completely the same, I dought that, I must have spent a few hundred hours between focus 3 & 10.


In the last few months, I have had a strange experience, or experience I would like to convay it as best I can and ask if any body has expereinced it?

I have stopped the Monroe course since a few years back.

Ill call it the clearing for now.

I personal do spend some time in the lotus position as my username may make obvious

When claim and cntered as far as close is and your mind is slowed and balanced my inner sense, I would not call it vision or even minds eye because it is not sight, my innear being experiencing exsistance and the ssubtle energies of distrest people, events close by or even far away (monores Rv course affected me quite strongly).

This state, to me I know this is what I am destined to face and exsist in, Im not perfect I have strong desires and I sin a lot in life, not badly but still if a person self reflects and then through the natural course of forced life matures into the vows he has taken, coupled with training of mind at any age, I believe one thing is certain.


That there is a clearing in the mind, a trade off of sorts.

Im going to get older and older and then most likey be in high pain untill I pass, but the flip side to that is that the ulitmate truth of exsistance must become clearer, even as you walk along the street or be involved in normal life, that Buddha in you, that follower of Jesus or what ever your thoughts in this dirrection.


The truth and therefore your connection between this life and the real life, it has to change.

I have had it happen to me numerious times now and it is had to explain but it kind of like the child in me is back, its like my mind is getting lots more information than is in front of me.

Every thing is kind of like cute, cool, perfect, fun, and this is the best word, Jolly, every thing is Jolly.


I dont take drugs or drink or smoke tobaco and this is not a medical related its a subtle change in perception, its not scary, I dont wish for to be stronger or weaker because its with in me and everything.


I know Buddha reached enlightment and I have tried so hard to improve myself but life is hard, Im hard, The human body map takes focus, this doll is a trick with in a trick to control.

I dont really know if my changes inside are true reflections of reality.I cant keep thinking about infinity and me, others and infinty.

Pefect honest commincation 100% of the time hard to deal with as a concept, which city do you live in, I dont see many people that give thoses thoughts much time of the day.


I heard a speach talk by depka or a guru master and he said.

Say to your self.

Breath in "I am alive".
Breath out "I smile to myself", Ive read about the pratice of tonglin and I watch mymindfullness, very rarely will I slip up, but faced with infinty and ultimate truth what are my efforts compared to this.

I have so many faults and it is so humbling to once in a while understand how far I am away from my true buddha nature, I mean Im miles away, I have failed in love, in true giving, in aceptance of mortality.

This post is not about poor me but I just wanted to say Im here getting older like every body else and the fight is worth it every one, the strugle to be closer to your real loving person which is inside of us all.


The experience im trying to relate to you above is like being in a playground were we are all kids and there is a clear mist between us all which is joyfull like a your best experience as a child dreamy like.


Maybe I need a cat scan, this dieing business is cours, but the seperation of mind from body is always going to show cracks in the universe so to speak.

Im out I hope what Ive writen is understood by some one, maybe not but this is a nice place and well we have different experiences.

Admin if you think this should be dropped in the gateway expericence you go right ahead.

ENJOY YOUR SUMMER EVERY ONE I THINK THERE IS ONE WHICH LAST FOR EVER IF YOU CAN HANDLE IT!



Bud

PS FOUND THIS OVER ON RENSE.
[This is a nice link on rense]
Death Is The
Beginning Of Life !!
http://www.rense.com/general77/nor.htm

I think I understand what you're talking about Buddha01; since I came home from TMI Gateway I too had this, well, viewpoint, as you said, like a child, everything's cute. I'm not all the time in this state, sometimes it's rough and I feel lost, asking "now what is THAT again about?!" But I never forget the greater view... that it's a playground as you said, it's indeed easy to see in meditation, but you're not in meditation all the time- but it would be an aim, wouldn't it, to be in the truth all the time and not being sidetracked all over again; but finally, being sidetracked is intended in this playground in which we are maybe for a reason, to reach a state of perfection we're not fully aware of what it is in detail- we can't be aware of it until we have reached it. So yes I think "the clearing" is a good term, to be out of the entanglement and everything is becoming transparent giving no reason to bother anymore.

Spooky

  hey, this is genuine communication. I hope u stick around too. most honesty I've seen in awhile.
I thought this eye graphic illustrates the opening perception you came back with from TMI Gateway and your Buddhic practices as well.
the joyfulness of the child has returned also to moi, and thats good because in body I am 60 years and found out that age doesn't matter in the least, of the body, when the mind begins to undergo the clearing of garbage thoughts, we automatically begin to grow younger with the fresher perspective of the child whose mind is allowed to be imaginative and creative once more.
you do not need to worry about that pain will come with age. It was a lie all the time that we did accept because everyone was telling us to expect that. so we wanted to fit in and be like our peers. but then we can break free of dependence on the collective mind areas because now we are entering the shift, energies will help us, assistance from the unseen worlds can be relied upon as we call to bust us free.
so why wouldn't we be very happy?

thanks again u r not afraid to express your love, this is superb as I see it. alysia