Greetings and Welcome

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If access to the internet is free for you, then you can learn just about all you need on these boards from other people's experiences. The only trouble is that in a book the experiences are set up in a sequence that is most efficient, quickest. Many of these books start at $4 something used at Amazon etc. If there's anything you could give up for that much, it would help.
Conditions to me are limitations, and what is given in unconditional love has no limitations. ---- OK, so sometimes 'stuff' gets in the way of that, but that's what I believe so I'll stick with it. We are all seeking the ideal anyway, so why begin with not-ideals. Congratulations on finding it with your fiancee!
Try prayer for improvement in your employment, for the betterment of others as well as yourself. When we pray for specific others and are not seeking huge miracles, it's amazing what response we can get!
bets