finally i found the time for meditation and for trying to see my past lives.
i didn't try Marylin's technique, i just imagined that i'm passing the portal with my guide, without any medows, etc.

when i passed it my guide disappered and i was a woman about 30, the man who i was visiting threw me into completly dark and big basement, i knew he had a knife. i was very scared, i started to hit/beat (i'm not sure the english word, sorry) the door and shout, but there was no effect. suddenly i felt someone is standing behind me, i turned around and saw a gril (she was about 10), i was scared of her, she has big terrific eyes, she said someting but i didn't listen to her, i tried to hug her but she wasn't afraid at all and that was scaring me the most, she seemed to do not have any feelings. i noticed she had a knife in her hand. i realized how sick was the house i was in. it was really unpleasant but i didn't opened my eyes. i was just looking at the girl and trying to control my fear, when i did it all scene disappeared.

it all seemed so strange, isn't it just my sick imagination? what do you think?

Ania

Hi Ania,
I often think when I have those strange experiences that they don't fit in the category of my own imagination. They are just too strange. Maybe when you think it over, if it is all just your "sick imagination" or is it more, you might come to a spontaneous answer you give for yourself.
Bye, Spooky

Marilyn, i think i don't need any box. in the past usually when i was afraid of something i was running away from it, but now i realized that it's not good way and i'm trying to face with my fears and it works. when i feel fear i don't run away but i'm trying to control it and it's gone.

anyway thanks for your advice

Hey Ania,

Not sure what to say except I really enjoyed reading about it and seeing your progress!

I think you have much understanding to come from this but maybe just not yet, it may be setting you up for something...

Ryan