Black_Napkins
Ex Member
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Hey there, my name is Greg. (I tend to use Black Napkins alot, because i'm a huge Frank Zappa fan.)
I've been reading these boards for a while now, some things i find interesting. I'm a 2nd year college student at University of Missouri-Columbia. Within the past year i have taken an increasingly large intrest in all this "Astral" if you will.
I've always as a child wondered about what happens when you die. i always tried to just imagine absolute nothingless, this concept to me is very unwelcome.(I mean i would lie in bed and think of this stuff when i was like 8.)
About 2 years ago when i was 17, my father of 55 passed away very suddenly. It really caught us all off guard, although i believe he really lost his will to live. within the span of 5 or so years, he lost his job, home life was full of fighting, he turned to alcoholism. Me being a teen full of rage, i always resented his drinking habits, and how he seemed to have given up, we weren't very close at all.
I now realize i should have been alot nicer, dispite the alchoholism, I don't hold a grudge. I feel that i have learned quite a bit about myself, and people around me from this experience. I can honestly it changed me for the better.
I've never "made contact" with my father after his passing, Maybe that is one reason why i am trying to Meditate/AP. I do happen to believe in an after-life, although i'm not sure in what exact concept...
I don't know if it's just me, but it seems that most people on this board are a bit older than me and also female. For some reason to me, alot of the statements from that crowd seem a bit more "Cliche", with not much actually backing up.
Maybe, it's my youth, or my "manlyness" if you will. But for some reason i have a hard time believing something without a reasonable amount of proof, and i've never really been a fan of anything to "cliche". I realize that alot of this is something to be experienced on your own.(which is what i'm trying to do, altough college keeps me busy.)
Theres alot of things i'd like to believe, like mediumship,(i ran across a site with a bunch of audio from Leslie Flint, Interesting but not much "proof") "healing touch", and spirit guides.
Alot of these types of things seem to good to be true, i believe the universe is a bit more chaotic..
Well, haha that should be enough from me for right now, i just felt like i needed to rant. Thanks for listening, or not. :p
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