I can't say I would want to change anything for the reasons already posted. in looking back there was always that small still voice that said childhood does not last forever. chin up, that sort of thing. not all of us have happy memories- I was small and insignificant around my family. these memories affect us, though we deny them.
later I studied my life, my own little world, is this not what we do? guides would help. then I met the guides within dream worlds. within obe or dream. then growth accelerated to understand only me, not others. later I could find our commonalities if I should.
I felt like I was an alien here. an alien who did not know what an emotion was, because I had only known a mental world. so I studied what was an emotion? it was certain I had too much of the stuff. I must figure out what they were. so I experienced all the human emotions within the grid areas where all the humans shout and plead, laugh and cry. then I said, I am not this emotion to identify with, so I must be something else. then the guides said yes, this is true. and now you can use the emotions and you know they are not you. I have completed my mission then I said, to understand? yes, they said, but would you like to stay longer to have some fun now? I said, it does not matter..what does the others think whom I came here with? the guides said the others have plans for you to be with them for awhile longer; will you agree? yes, I said I love them. I only want to be with them in truth. (I have some grandchildren coming soon!) these children are great souls coming in, and even were they not, I would still see them as great! love, alysia