Rob_Roy
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I saw this thread and decided this would be a good first post.
I have spent several years in the American military, including the US Marine Corps Infantry, US Army Airborne, and lately in the National Guard (a reserve component of the US Army). I am also a veteran of Iraq.
A few things to point out (this may get heavy; that's because of the nature of what I am discussing):
In our all-volunteer military, most join because they need a job. Most come from economically disadvanted backgrounds.
The suffering of war isn't limited to those that occur in theater. Divorce, suicide, and other problems run rampant among those who have returned from Iraq. I am almost through a divorce myself after twelve years of marraige and five children. It's hasn't been a pretty one, either.
Many of my friends are going through the same. At least two in my unit alone have attempted suicide. These are not young people.
All of us have to live with the knowledge that some of our friends and others we were associated with over there are dead or mangled for life. More are on the way and we may, problably, will have to go there again.
The children. This may surprise some but it's the children over there and what they have to go through that causes a lot of the negative feelings for the war for many of us who been around them. Bullets and high explosives don't discriminate.
The problems actually start BEFORE going. I turned down a job I just had accepted making a lot more than what I make now, because I got notified of my deploymnet two days after accepting it, the notification being all of one month. I had to drop two college classes I was in and am now trying to get the school to forgive a $1500US bill so I can resume my studies. Minor, yes, but that was just the start.
I spent two hours talking to a friend in an aisle at Walmart who was ready to flip out on his boss, and who wants to go back to Iraq because he can't adjust. This sort of thing is not at all unusual.
These decriptions don't even come close to describing the depth of suffering undergone by some of our vets after returning home. Behind closed doors in the middle of the night are those who are wailing and trying to crawl into the floor, asking in agony the age-old question: "Why me?" Most of these people didn't kill anyone. Most of the rest were protecting themselves or doing the job they swore an oath do do because they needed a job. They are not stone-cold killers who think war is fun.
Our mangled suffer in silence, largely forgotten by the public. Their suffering is perhaps the greatest, having to deal with same as the others who returned in addition to being disabled for life. The dead are no longer suffering, but their children, spouses, and other family members are.
Statistically (apparently), about ten percent of war veterans actually enjoy killing. I suspect that at least most of that ten percent are psychopathic. I am not a psychologist, so I won't go any further with this.
On the positve side, for me anyway, is I now have the time to explore afterlife issues. I am now more sensitive to paranormal experiences. I sense things that I previously could not (dead people, energies). I communicate with my guardian now. I have a girlfriend who can do the same. I am now more concerned about lucidity and clarity in my thought. My ambition now is to go the TMI and start their programs, something I had to put off when dealing with a spouse, five kids, working full time, and going to university at night. My spiritual growth and knowlege has been accelerating. I don't know that that is true for everyone who has come back.
BTW, please do not ever ask a vet how many people he or she killed. You would not believe how many people think that question is ok to ask.
All the belief that things happen for a reason, that our dead are really, problably ok, and that we chose these experiences doesn't really take much away from the pain.
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