Or should I say ...between consciousnesses ???
I remember, throughout my life, not being able to chronicle the transition between realities (dream and awake). But for the past few nights - and sometimes during the day -  I find myself slipping into a realm where if I think of something, It exists... Sort of like when we dream, but we don't realize it's us making up the scene. I've been consciously noting the made-up reality of my dreams. And usually, like every other time I realize I'm dreaming, I fully wake up. I've been hearing voices, like thousands of voices simultaneously franticly trying to be heard, but the volume turned all the way down. This isn't very new to me, but I figured I'd share it, along with the other experiences I've had...
I've also been very stressed lately, I guess I could blame all this on that.
Sometimes It feels as if something (maybe myself) is trying to pull me away from this level of consciousness... Like at any time of day, It'll hit me, I'll start to think in a way that's completely foreign to me, I remember afterwards that It made sense to me (at the time) but after that, I can only vaguely remember what I was experiencing...
I've got my theories, but I'd like to know what you all think.
-Thanks!

" I've been hearing voices, like thousands of voices simultaneously franticly trying to be heard, but the volume turned all the way down."

I have heard people report this several times.
Mary Ann on this forum has experienced it.
Psychic Serena Sabac, in replying to a letter from a reader, said that it means you are opening up psychically, and dozens of spirits are trying to reach you.

Schizophrenia, it could be just a touch of it that gets released by stress.  'Course, that's not necesarily bad.  Shamans fall into the same category.  There are probably many shamans on medication, who, w the right training could have come into their right heritage.

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I probably just am schizophrenic...Which is scary. The thought of slipping into madness. Perhaps more material distractions in my life woule be in order, orrrrrr - Maybe I should pray. A lot!

Kathy,

I agree with you.  And could you briefly explain Tai chi and q-gong please, thanks.


Emc,

I have had some of the same kinds of experiences you describe and tons more, so I know how you feel.  For years I couldn't tell anyone about the strange experiences I've had.  After reading your NDE experience, it made me remember all the times growing up that I had experiences where I could have died but didn't.  Mine weren't  NDE's though, just close calls.  No wonder I'm so weird!  Just for laughs, here they are:

Let's see, when I was a few months old I rolled off the changing table while mom wasn't looking (thanks mom!) and my brother who was 4 just happened to waltz into the room at that very moment to catch me before I hit the floor. At 2 years old I choked on a piece of an orange and stopped breathing but my mom said she held me upside down by my ankles and shook me til it came out.  (Way to go mom, nice parenting technique!  Ha Ha.  Lucky for me I didn't get brain damage from the shaking). At 5 I smashed my head through a window because I was mad at my brother.  At 6 I nearly drowned in a swimming class because I was trying to get the handsome swimming teacher's attention by going in the deep end.  (It worked)  At 17 I stopped breathing during dental surgery but even though they said I was asleep I saw and heard the whole thing.  (I wrote that in another post).   When I was 25 my lungs had filled with blood (due to a tumor breaking a blood vessel) while I was sleeping.  Our baby started crying and woke me up just in time.  The doc said I was lucky because it should have been impossible for me to awaken at all. 

I know there's more from my childhood but I can't remember them right now.  But I just wanted to share these because I have always grown up feeling like I had protection.  Not that I was ever fearless, but I always felt like someone was watching out for me. 
Emc, I especially like how you mentioned you "see people's spirits in their faces".  I know what you mean by that. 

Anyway, don't feel weird sharing your experiences.  I like to hear them from everyone--makes me feel more normal. 

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  Whoa Vicky, boy did you have some extreme experiences !   I don't mean to laugh at your expense but those two above got me belly laughing 

  Thanks 

Wow, so much to say... where do I start? I was kinda just kidding about the whole schitzophrenic thing... Although I have had fits of paranoya, I know I have the capacity to keep from going deeper. You all make me feel very well about myself, I'm comfortable here now, thank you very much. All of you. 

I was actually half-expecting to be ridiculed and joked at, I guess that goes to show how used to it I am.

Vicky: good to know I'm not alone on the whole face thing. Along with that I see much more, habits, traits, their pains, desires, even from a photo. It's all a very intense emotional thing for me. Imagine sometimes having to see the real ugliness in people you love and would look after, or the coldness in a persons eyes, and then to have to look in the mirror and see yourself. For me, more often than ever, I see so much pain in my own eyes and it's ever reciprocated I see a dying spirit.  *sigh to that... But there's a plus side to it, I often know how to deal with people because of it, or who to avoid. It's like having an inside track. Glad to know also that I'm not alone in feeling protected. That feeling gave my life purpose, I knew what it was even as a youngster, since my earliest memories, knowing I was meant to have a profound effect on many people. Maybe it was just a feeling then, because I've no Idea now how that's supposed to happen HAHAHA.

Justin2710: The voices are very VERY scary to me sometims. Earlier, I was at work, feeling fine when writing to you. Right now, I'm home, and I feel several people around me, I'll say people. The more I talk (or focus on the) the more heightened my sensitivity will be. There is someone standing behind me to my left, and someone sitting on my bed right now it feels like. Either that or 1 entity moving around, I don't know. It's not as threatening as it is a just-plain-creepy feeling. The same applies to right before I sleep, the more I think about it, the louder the voices get. And many are painful, very few so far have been positive on any note, maybe they mostly are painful because they need to be heard and helped...well, I need help myself lol. I know they are not my mind because I make myself think phrases while they talk, it's been like sitting in a class right before the teacher begins... you're chatting with your buddy while you hear the rest of the class. I can't predict (let alone dictate) what is said, which is why it's very genuine to me.

Lights of Love: I left my friends house to go home this evening, and the air was a muggy swampy musk, nostalgic of when I was a child with friends playing until it was time to go home.... It felt SOOOOOO good! The smell was so calming, I needed that....So I need to get centered? I know, you're right.  Right now, my life is very hectic. In all honesty, spiritually, I want to shut my 'beacon' off. I don't want to hear voices before I >attempt< to rest. I don't want to feel entities I can't see or touch. If what I experience was intended to be some sort of gift, I don't feel spiritually mature enough to handle it. BTW, I feel very detached from reality, for the past few months really bad. I'm not sure that I'm still actually physically alive.

Y'know.... writing all this has made me realize something, my spirit has been seriously corrupted...as a child, things were pure, simple. now, i'm driven by the desire to survive in a dog-eat-dog environment. I can even remember the day I stopped fighting the mentality. I'm a mess now because I lost my balance, somewhere around 6 years ago.  I need to find my center again.... I'll cut it short here, but thank you all again for your support.  Well, I'm getting sleepy...I'll try to remember what I hear tonight (if anything) and I'll post tomorrow morning... good night.

I've said so much, ye so much I didn't say...

Jkeyes,

Thank you very much. Thank you all for your thoughts and kind words. I became very occupied over the weekend in work. If that was an illusion, it definitely took me away from those very 'deep' meaning-of-life-type thoughts. lol Which was a type of peace for me.
I don't know all about the "M Band" too much, I'll have to look into that.
You're too kind, calling me a pioneer   , I'm just a guy trying to make sense of what's going on. I'm just trying to find peace and meaning.

I do feel that drugs are sort of a cop-out to real treatment. I really don't trust them since there are are like 5 man-made cures in the world lol, and the treatments for the most part cause more problematic side-effects.

Sure we can call a person crazy, because we want everyone to fit into a standard, sort of like a social communism. And when a person is supernatural, different from the bunch they're either alienated, or exaulted. What is up with that? I don't think the world is ready for the world to change.

I'm at work, and work calls...I'll be back with something interesting.