Hi, I hope I posted in the right section. I apoligise in advance, this is all very new to me and I hope I don't bother anyone, the forum does seem to be geared more towards sharing your experiences and knowledge while I myself have next to none.
I've visited this website for about 10 days now, I've been browsing through the posts and reading what I could, I won't beat around the bush, when discussing such a deep subject as this it's best to be upfront.
I'm a 24 year old male Irish Catholic (born in Australia, living in Hong Kong) Although I'm Catholic, I'm very open minded and I don't feel my beliefs or capacity to believe is restricted at all. This is all very new to me. My reason for posting here is for a variety of reasons, I've felt a little down lately, Hong Kong is a very busy modern commercial city, and thus I feel there is a certain soulnessness and superficiality here (like any such place) I'm married (approaching 3 years) and I love my wife dearly. Facing the big "25"
the feelings of immortality we all feel when we're teenages is fading and I'm faced with my own mortality, I've never really doubted an afterlife, but aspects of it I am wondering about. I really love the new family I have and I love my wife (I really want to make sure that I can do the best for her in this life) and I do feel that some outside force has influenced (for which I am thankful) events in my life, why did I suddenly have an urge to come to Hong Kong? (where I would later meet my wife), why after knowing this girl for a while did I suddenly again have an "urge" to marry this girl?(again to which I am eternally thankful)
I fear dieing and discovering I've had a thousand other lives and my wife and family is just a part of one of them, I won't want to have the feelings I have now taken away from me
I love the idea of reunited with "God" (perhaps you all have your own interpretations of this force) but I do fear losing my individual self
These concerns are perhaps so... for lack of a better word "mortal" but they are great concerns nonetheless.
I want to explore the spiritual side I've read about here, and I hope some kind members could PM me and share their experiences about their beginnings into this "new world", I'm sure it's better to hear the experiences that to throw a thousand questions your way.
I'm sure as soon as it hit "post" I'll remember half a dozen other things I wanted to say but forgot, I've thought long and hard about this first post.
Forgive my prose, or if it appears I'm rambling, it can be difficult to open up about such things and I have so much to learn.
Also moderators, forgive me if I have posted in an inappropriate section.