Alysia,

Yeah, we could be clones!  Lol!

Your "2002" experience is a good example of learning to surrender.  I've had several of those!  I remember not getting a part in a play five years ago and being extremely upset.  The play, a comedy, was wonderfully written.  The playwright and the acting troupe seemed to be "up and coming".  I auditioned well and the director seemed to really like my work.

The callback situation was intense.  I must have been there three hours or more and they kept calling me in the room to read (there were five or six of us).  Finally, it seemed to be whittled down to about three of us.  One of the guys I read with a lot relied on facial mugging and indicating.  Jim Carrey notwithstanding, it was annoying because whenever we read together it felt like he and I were acting in different scenes on different continents.  But the directors seemed to like him.

I didn't get the part.  For weeks I was crushed -- a perfect opportunity dangled like a carrot in front of me and then gone.  I railed at my guides who remained silent.  Maybe I got one "it was for your higher good" but if I did it quickly got drowned out with complaints from me.

I went to see the play when it opened.  It was so badly executed I was shocked.  It was a La Ronde type play, and the scene I was being considered for was one of the worst in its execution.  And yes, they'd cast the mugger. 

Needless to say, I was so thankful I didn't get cast in that play.  If I had, I'd have been miserable.  Also, prior to auditioning for that play I was just finished up with a play where there'd been a lot of difficulty with the artistic director and the company members were planning a coup!  So I was not in a place where I'd want to deal with yet another tense/unhappy circumstance.

For me, this was a demonstrable experience of why something occurred (or didn't occur) for my highest good.  Now when I don't get a part, I still get disappointed sometimes but I also wonder if maybe my not getting it was for my higher good.

Certainly, I've got even more intense examples of surrender in my life.  But this one comes to mind because I just auditioned (thought I blew them away!) for a part that could be a career maker and it doesn't look like I got it.

There are times when words like "for my higher good" taste like bitter medicine.  But my past experience has shown that usually it all works out for the highest and best in the long run.

Love and light,

Jeff

Dear Lucy,

Thanks for the reply.  I was kind of shocked to see this thread at the top of the list but glad to see your name.

I don't think I have any threads I've started.  And I haven't been on any retrievals since then, although I've participated in a couple of dream retrievals.

However, I'm about to embark upon a project with my sister who lives in Michigan.  She's got a lot of mental and health problems and I just got her permission to work with her non-physically.  So, among other things, I thought I'd try retrieving any personality aspects for her that had gotten separated. 

I tried this with a friend who lived in Holland a couple of years ago.  Although he didn't have any aspects that I retrieved, I was able to get information that he then used to improve his health.  This will, however, be the first time I've done it for someone this close to me.

So it should be interesting.  I know my sister will be okay with posting about this, but, of course, I will still have to ask.

Very interesting about the children's book.  I could really sense or feel the story as you related it.  It's very funny that you talked about your job as today I've been going through some intense "I hate my job" feelings.  In fact, I almost quit.  Actually, reading your response helped get me out of that cycle, so you've been helpful to me today too.

With this job, I too thought I could avoid the problems here.  It wasn't until three weeks ago I realized that I just couldn't take it anymore. 

I've started teaching meditation in the past year and I'd much rather be doing that and helping people than working a support position in a law firm.  So I'm going to be putting more and more of my energy into that.

Anyway, I'll keep you posted (no pun intended).

Love and light,