I'd just like to start of with saying other than my struggling to figure out what my career will be(this has been going on for years), I feel good and everything else seems to be ok(for those of you that remember me)

I do have this concern about old-age death, though-  Does anyone know if all-timer's(I have no idea how this is really spelled) or other mental problems that can arise with old-age stay with you when you die?  What about physical trauma to your brain that affects you mentally?

I don't like being a part of this ELS or whatever(I don't believe in it's having any meaningful purpose other than a very painful and often ineffective way to learn a few things, and I'd like to be completely free from it, and without any unwanted complications when I die so I can actually experience this elusive concept known as real free-will.