Marta
Ex Member
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Hi everyone!
After a long break from exploring.....LOL....I'm back...anyway yesterday I decided to explore again, with intent to meet Ajtosh and perhaps doing a retrieval.
After my preparatory 3x3x3 process, I was in the 3D, went to my place and sure there was Ajtosh as waiting for me....LOL, I told him how glad I was to see him again after such a long time, he said....'LOL...not for me, here we don't have the chronological time as you experience on Earth'....we laugh about that...then I said that I was eager for some action...as perhaps a retrieval, he said OK lets go.
I felt the typical *fast inner* movement, and suddenly he said....open your perceptions, oh boy...what I *felt* was dizziness....I told him that I was feeling like *vertigo*, then I realized that I was on the top of a bridge on water and a woman in her middle 20s was ready to jump, then I got the *imp* that she had committed suicide and was repeating the same scene over and over, every time after she jumped......she found herself again on the top of the bridge with no memory that she had already jumped. I asked Ajtosh if my *imp* was correct, he said yes...that her emotional state in the moment before she jumped was what prevailed in her, she wanted to end her life but at the same time she was scared of death, then she was unable of facing the moment of death.
I approached her and she said,...'who are you? go away', I said...'I just want to help you and talk to you', she said.....'no one can help me, no one cares about me, I just want to end all this, I have nothing to live for', then I told her.....'I care about you and you have yourself, whatever you do...jumping or not jumping, you never will loose yourself'. She seemed to be listening, then I said...'how long have you been there on top of this bridge, thinking to jump?, she said.....'I'm not sure...I just know that I want to die but I'm scared', then I said.....'what if I tell you that you have already jumped, try to imagine that, just think that you already did it, just look at me, I'm here with you.....and you are still alive and I assure you that you have already jumped....there is nothing to be scared of'. To her amaze, all the scene of the bridge disappeared, apparently our conversation diverted her focus from the emotional state in which she was 'stuck', and she said.....'oh my god, you are right'......she was so happy that she was still very much alive, then I saw people approaching us and she became very excited, as recognizing them, then she said....'oh, there is my father'.....and she run toward him.
After that, I knew she was going to be OK, after they faded away...I said to Ajtosh...'oh, I forgot to ask her name', then he told me that her name was Margaret Trent, she killed herself in one of the bridges in Seattle, Bellevy? (my understanding) and her death was in 1958. I said thanks to Ajtosh and came back to C1.
After the experience, as always I tried to verify the information, not being familiar with the area of Seattle. I found that there is an area in Seattle which name is Bellevue, and two bridges connects this area with the downtown of Seattle.
Thanks for listening.
LOVE Marta
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