Vicky
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I thought it best to start a thread just for this topic of conversation rather than to divert another thread...so Albert this was really in reply to you, but I hope it will get some conversation going on the subject of PUL.
I was going to say that the subject of pure unconditional love as well as Bruce's teaching The Feeling of Love is one of the most important and fundamental things I've learned from Bruce's work and it can be felt and used by anyone for any reason. Bruce always says that if he can teach only one thing, it would be the feeling of Love.
Before I knew of Bruce's work, before I was even aware of PUL and all the other spiritual terms, tools, and techniques I've come to learn, I think my most amazing and profound experience of Pure Unconditional Love was when I was visited by a spiritual being in the hospital. I'm sure those of you who know me remember this story since I think I have mentioned it quite a bit.
I had a large tumor growing inside the lower lobe of my left lung but didn’t know it; my only symptom was a mild cough that lasted a month or so. One day at work I heard "The Voice" say, "You have a tumor. It is centrally located.” What I call The Voice is my way of describing one of the psychic ways in which I receive information about something that I have no normal way of knowing. I literally hear it just like a physical voice, and I always hear it in my right ear. I lump all the ways in which I “am psychic” into just calling it my Guidance. I believe psychic information comes from my Higher Self, and I’ve always been comfortable with that belief, not really going too deep into labeling it as anything else. Just calling it “Guidance” serves its purpose for me.
So I heard this statement every day for two months: “You have a tumor. It is centrally located.” At first I thought it was so odd, a fluke, something might be psychologically wrong with me, and couldn’t possibly be an actual warning of a tumor. But I eventually came around to the idea that it really was a real warning, and that for whatever reason this voice (whatever it was) was really trying to warn me. But I wondered why. I wondered how can this be and why wasn’t it also giving me more information or telling me what to do, or telling me “don’t worry, you’ll be ok”??
Then one night my husband and I were awakened by the sound of our 8-month-old crying…we heard him through the baby monitor. As soon as I sat up the coughing started again but this time I literally could not stop to catch a breath. Within a couple minutes I felt like I couldn’t breathe at all, and then this awful pressure feeling came to my chest and throat. I began coughing up large amounts of blood. In between bouts of this I could get in a big breath but then the pressure came again, and then more blood came up. It was obvious I had internal bleeding but I still had no idea why.
In the ER the x-ray showed that I had a huge tumor in my lung. It also showed my lungs were still nearly filled with blood despite how much I had coughed up. The ER doc said, “I just don’t understand how you can have this tumor and you didn’t know. I don’t understand how your lungs could fill up with blood like that. Both sides were completely filled with blood. Are you sure you were lying in bed sleeping when this happened?” I told him yes we were, and that we woke because our baby had started crying. He said, “You’re lucky that you have a young baby at home then. If you hadn’t woke up and coughed up some of the blood when you did, you would not have lived long enough to hear your alarm go off this morning. You probably had maybe another hour to live.”
So not only was it amazing that I heard the voice warn me about the tumor, but it was also remarkable that our baby woke us up because this was the first time he had actually cried. I’m not exaggerating! He would get a little fussy at times but he never cried, not even at night. He was an exceptionally good, easy baby. But on this night he was fully crying, loudly, and I think that’s part of what my Guidance did to save my life! When we told the ER doc this, he was clearly astounded and said, “Then a miracle happened to you tonight!” Even my husband, the ultimate non-believer in anything, was crying in amazement.
So to my point about the feeling of PUL. A nice young man had come to visit me that morning in the hospital and told me not to worry, that everything was going to be all right, and that I wasn’t going to die. What was so neat was that I had prayed quietly alone that morning, telling God that I don’t want to die and asking for him to let me know if I was. No one knew I had said that prayer. But each time this young man came to visit me throughout that day and evening, he reassured me that I wasn’t going to die. If you’re wondering, yes other people saw and spoke to him too. For all intents and purposes he was physically there. We all just assumed he worked at the hospital.
He even told me what to expect the next morning before they wheeled me in for the surgery, and he got very specific right down to the minute. I would have loved to see the look on my face. I was thinking, how in the world does he know minute to minute what’s going to happen? He was telling me who would show up first of my family members, he told me why my husband would be running late, he told me exactly what my brother would say when he showed up, etc. And yes, he was exactly right. Everything he said happened! I knew at this point that something pretty darn amazing was going on, but I had no idea it would get even better.
A couple nights after the surgery I had woken up in the middle of the night, and I suddenly thought of that nice man and wished I could see him again. And then suddenly he appeared in the room standing next to the bed! He just appeared! He looked so different than I’d seen him before. He had a golden light all around him. He was looking at me with the sweetest and most loving look, and I said, “It’s you! You’re here!” And he said, “I’m always here for you, Vicky.” He said to me, “Remember before your surgery I had told you you weren’t going to die? You didn’t believe me. You wanted to know if you were going to die, and it was my job to come here to tell you that you weren’t going to die, but you didn’t really believe me. I want you to know that’s why I came to you. You asked to know if you were going to die, and it was my job to come here and tell you you weren’t going to die.” He was this specific and adamant that I understand exactly what he was saying. It was so incredible. I was in so much disbelief that this amazing thing was happening. I knew that my prayer had been heard and answered. And not only that, this man who had been coming to visit me had just appeared out of thin air right in front of me!! I can still remember and relive this experience in my mind so clearly, and I still remember how unbelievable it was.
He came and sat on the side of the bed and asked if he could pray with me and I said yes. I want to note here that I’m not a religious person, don’t go to church, don’t read the Bible, am not a Christian or anything, but I DO pray. He said the prayer and then as he was looking into my eyes I felt something “turn on” and grow. It was already amazing just being in his presence but I now know that what this feeling was is PUL, like an energy that he could just emit from his body. And it just grew and grew as we sat there looking into each other’s face. It was the most amazing and strongest feeling of love or anything I had ever felt. It wasn’t just a feeling, it was literally like an energy surrounding me. The degree in which he was making me feel it was so strong that I remember that I wasn’t able to feel anything else. In those moments he was there turning on this enormous feeling that he was giving me, it was the equivalent of being impossible to feel anything else but PUL at that moment.
You know how Bruce teaches that fear and love cannot coexist? That’s what I mean. It would be literally impossible to feel anything else but this love. That’s how powerful this feeling was. I remember thinking that I wish every single person in the entire world, I don’t care who they are or what horrible things they’ve done, I wish every person in the world could feel this feeling even just for 5 minutes. It would change everyone. It would change the world.
Over the years I’ve thought of this experience hundreds of times. Some people ask me if I really was awake, or was this experience an OBE, or in a dream, or was the man nonphysical?? I know that he was seen by my family and they had spoken with him too on a few occasions, so I wasn’t the only one who saw him. That night when he appeared out of thin air and had the golden glow around him, I fully believe I was physically awake. There’s no doubt in my mind whatsoever about that. So whatever kind of being this man was, he had the ability to travel between dimensions and appear and be physical! I don’t think of it as me having a special ability to experience this. I literally believe that this being was so advanced that HE had the ability to do this.
I have had numerous other amazing experiences of PUL and because of the feeling of PUL, so it’s why it’s one of my passions to talk about and spread the word about.
Vicky
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