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Bill, You don't define your terms, mind's eye, imagination, thoughts in raw form. But from what I can understand of what you describe, it seems on track.
Don't worry about surroundings being black; that is natural, and black is good. The important thing is not seeing your surroundings, it is realisation of your own presence - your self-identification. Whether surroundings are black or not, keep yourself the observer, objective and distant, well contained and identified. Develop control of yourself as your condensed core state, and get to know it really well. Your environment is not important; coming to know your central self is.
Positioning of your central self is relevant. Where it is normally positioned - like now while you're reading this - is for bodily sensory operations and from here the mental environment is a little above, so we are aware of visual thinking but can't necessarily make it out that clearly, even though we know what we are imagining.
Practicing imaging helps develop the faculty of mental vision; drawing, contrasting, colouring, rotating images, imaging complex images with lots of contrast, detail, sights and sounds - but do so sensibly - desire/emotion follows thought; thought that stirs physical feelings causes physical enmeshment; and indulging in fantasy can lead us away from reality. Imagination is powerfully effective in beneficial and detrimental ways. Keep sensible. Like a scientist, not like a fantasist. Remain the investigator. Rational, in control, not desirous. Landscapes, maps, imagining extended surroundings, and wholesome projects, are good subjects to practice on.
Distinguish between what is imagined and you who imagine it. Become familiar with your faculty of mental sight - the seeing, not what is seen. And no matter what is seen, put little credit in it; don't treat it as gospel truth; treat it like all things normally seen; keep objective; let reality slowly build up, always awaiting multiple verifications and proofs. Subject all things to reason and sound judgement.
So positioning and visual ability go together. Learning to position yourself further back, within and upward, will be helpful. Learn to hold yourself steady there. Keep aware of yourself, inwardly of your own presence, and aware outwardly of your surroundings, and keep distant/distinct from your surroundings. Practice this meditatively and when performing daily tasks like walking, housework, gardening, etc.
Don't get dependent on the spirit guide. Conscience is better, and makes you strong and independent. It is in the opposite direction to looking outward at your environment. If you extend your inward awareness further inward and upward as far as you can, conscience is there, at the inner upper pinnacle of your core self, like a skylight. It may be dull and require a lot of "attention" and practice over time to brighten up.
The little circle of vision you saw right in front of you is an aperture on the screen of mind. I expect it was opened for you, as an appetiser. It is like looking out through the pupil of an eye from the inside. It is mostly closed, and in most people nearly always closed. It only opens when you the core observant self are positioned on the right step/stage/level, and when things like degree of condensation/containment/identity of core self and distance from the screen of mind are right. Then while holding oneself there, and not falling forward towards it, breathe in through it, and maintaining your distance learn to open it. It is a steady, gentle and delicate task. When open it can see most vividly, any distance, and from the widest to smallest scope. Keep back from it, so plenty of the black screen of mind remains around it and contrasts with it. Keeping back from it, holding steady, breath management, is how you learn to control it. On the border of physical sleep but still internally awake, is a good time to practice it, but don't get too obsessed about it to the extent that you neglect physical responsibilities. Conscience and heart, relationships and life duties require the most work, and their progress must be well ahead of non-physical hobbies.
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