The positive news from the ultrasound examination of my wife's tumors were not that positive after all. The type of cancer she has can be hard to detect with ultrasound. But at least, now we know what kind of cancer it is and from where it probably started: in her small intestine, not in her ovaries to where it has spread. That explains much.

I've tried healing for almost four weeks to help my wife. I've changed the way I'm doing it several times. I've experienced difficulties to keep the feeling. The biggest problem is her suffering because of the mother tumor partially blocking the end of her small intestine. It's  really difficult to stay in a healing mood when your love has pains. Earlier I could help temporarily by placing my hands on her back and perform a healing session. Now it has become more difficult. I become stressed when she suffer. To me, the best sessions are when we are in different rooms and I can focus on the healing and not her pains. But I'm not shore it's better to her.

It's difficult when not receiving as much positive feed back from her body as earlier, but I believe that weak efforts during a long time can work. That they facilitate a 'victory' (I don't really like this term – the cancer has its origin in her body and is part of it. It's not like exterminating an intruding swarm of grasshoppers. I think the healing process is more like balancing weed in an organic field).

I tried healing, boosted by Hemisync. It felt good until the last part when images of persons looking like Russian soldiers disturbed my mind and I lost focus on my wife. I had to focus on my spiritual partners to get it back. It might be good to use hemisync before a healing session but perhaps not during it.

Since normalization of Tina's intestines would be a direct and positive signal of a working healing process you are welcome to join me for a couple of days in directing healing energy to the lower end of her small intestine, on the last two horizontal inches where it enters a vertical part of the large intestine. Here the tumor has thickened the wall of the small intestine and narrowed the passage, causing the pain since swallowed air don't pass through but make a painful return instead.

I visualize the healing process like that layers of the 'tube' becomes peeled off in a healing globe of light and disappears and that the inside of the intestine becomes wider and wider and the wall becomes thinner and thinner and regains its original elasticity and dimensions.

God's love to all of you

Seagull, I've asked for God's blessing of your family, that you all will be able to use your wings and circle around freely in the air. Yes, sometimes it feels as if the powers are against one's efforts. Today, when my wife feels better (I'm so glad, thanks for all the help we receive)  I can laugh about it. I've become more accepting. Trying to make the best out of the situation. What more can I do?

This and next week will de dicessive for us. I really hope that we will receive a positive message from the doctors about the disease and the treatment. I think we have done what we can up to now. Whatever they will say I'm confident that I will go on with the healing program, trying to strengthen my wife and channel the healing spirit to her. Happened to  find http://www.healingandcancer.org/healing-program . Perhaps it can give us some more boost.

Thanks Matthew, right now the menu her body accepts is very limited, but day by day she eats better. It would be nice if they could remove the big tumor (maybe it's only one) but a surgeon from another clinic told me that if there are metastases surgery is no option. I don't know, but to me it seems more likely that chemotherapy will be more efficient if the main mass of cancer cells is removed. We will soon find out what the oncologists say (haven't met any yet).