Vicky
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I don't really know how it's changed me because even as a child I always believed and knew there was an afterlife. I don't know how else I would be not having always felt this way. But I didn't always automatically know and understand and believe what I do now; that took a lot of work. I actually remember as a very young child hating being alive simply because I knew the "real stuff" was out there, not in this physical life. And with all the hardships and bad things I had to tolerate in life, all I wanted to do was get it over with, die, or escape somehow. I kept wondering why I had to even be here in the first place!
How I've changed from feeling that way to how I feel now, is learning, feeling, and experiencing love. When I was young all I wanted was to fall in love, be loved, have children that I could give all my love to, etc. But it wasn't until just a few years ago that I began learning how to love myself. I had only ever searched for it outside of myself, not realizing that I was missing something.
When I experienced and learned that myself here is the same as my higher self "out there", that's what changed me. It's made me more peaceful, patient, tolerant, and accepting. It's made me go from being a person who wonders why bad stuff happens to me, to being a person who strives to learn how to make the changes I want to feel, have, and experience in my life. From feeling sorry for myself to being grateful. From just seeking help to creating, giving, and sharing it.
It's always a work in progress though, especially during hard times and difficult situations that can make it easy to give up all hope and sink into despair. But what I've learned so far carries me through it all. And that still always surprises me that it works! But as long as I remember to lift myself from despair with love, it does always change everything.
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