really makes you think this one, 2 and 5 I gotta work on 
thanks for posting
Paul.

I'm at work now, so I guess I'm not working too hard.

   I can relate to that list. Six years ago I wanted to die and took an overdose. Ever since then, I've been living to fulfill everything on that list. I'm very happy now and although I still look forward to going to the other side, I make the most of my life here all of the time. I am glad that God gave me a chance to live beyond that stupid day in my life and many good things have happened since then.

And chocolate is vegetarian. Just like beer and whisky.

Yes, it can be hard to love yourself. But at least you have taken the step to divorce. You should compliment yourself on that. And be proud you did that.
I know you can call yourself all kind of names for waiting too long with it, but at least you have done it and now you are in the new phase of your life.
Everything goes step by step. Nobody can surpass any steps. You are only human Juditha.

I love you,
God bless,

Mogy

On letting yourself be happier: sometimes it's not so easy. One of the little-known effects of mold exposure is depression. It's so easy to blame the victim when depression occurs, because others can't find the reason for it. But if it's biochemical, there won't be a "reason" other than the victim is being poisoned.

I got away from mold and my depression dissipated, but I find I still have some habits to correct. I started hitting tennis balls against a bang board to get a little exercise, and after I started to get a little better at it, found myself chastising myself for errors. A little light bulb went on, and I said to myself, "Why am I punishing myself during an activity I'm doing for fun?" And I decided that from that point onwards I will not change mood when an error occurs. That part, I have control of, and it is contributing to my happiness.

It would be interesting, if communication were ever truly open (i.e. Bruce's "telephone") to get a take on "five regrets of the dead" vs. the dying.  When one is dying one is in the physical world.  Some may have made contact with the hereafter.  I find it illuminating in that they are trying to deal with what is "really important" to them -  one of the reasons why the nurse heard "I worked too hard." 

If someone works 14 hour days, how much interaction can they have with their family?  How much more would they have liked to have done or said?  Was chasing the almighty dollar worthwhile?

Vicky, the loving yourself part is a tricky one.  I think it necessary, but for me, it is sometimes difficult to sort out my ego from myself.  I think after a long life, many of us are supposed to deconstruct the ego, to become comfortable with our true selves.  I don't see this as a void or loss of personality, but quite the opposite; coming into one's own.  Judging from your posts and your insight/writings, sounds to me like you are doing just fine.  Just my two cents.

Best,

Matthew