Please accept my apologies if I am posting in the wrong forum, but I have had so many strange occurrences to where I am at a lost as to where to start.

Since I was a child, I have had the ability to sense, see, and communicate with "spirits". Some have been cruel, but most were friendly. As I have aged, I have BLOCKED(intentionally) my ability to communicate with them, but now I have started experiencing some things that leave me in awe...Someone please help me figure this out.

At least once a month, I find myself soaring/flying through the solar system, around the moon, and off to another world that actually has a real city where others walk around and talk to...guides maybe? But, they don't seem to be aware of one another or my presence, but I am entirely aware of them. Then I go take a seat on the steps of what leads to a beautiful flowing waterfall...and then the same man that I see ALL THE TIME in my dreams, shows up...and it is as if visited this city purposely to find and talk to him. He always seemed humored to see me...as if i am a complaining child of his that he loves too much to scold.  Then I start complaining about how much the earth sucks and that the people "just don't get it", and that the people are hopeless and that I don't want to stay on earth any longer and I demand to be able to come home at once!!!??? He patiently listens and reminds me that I understood the journey before I "left" and just to be patient that my journey wasn't complete. I go on for what seems like hours...complaining and demanding to "come home"..until i am told, yet again to return to earth! All of a sudden, I am being like...sucked back to earth with a speed that I can't describe...I turn around (although I am not in my body...I don't see it, but I am aware of myself..? I see the earth...even the light that illuminates around it. I wake up..and sit straight up...angry that I am back, but then i become frightened that I actually experienced something that was too real to be fake! I am not suicidal, but I have always felt that there was more to life than what most of my peers and family accepted. I come from a Christian background, but I still have this feeling and knowing that even they miss the point!? When I am not with this "man" in this city, He and I are soaring all over the world helping people that are in dire need of help. I have had people/strangers break down in tears when they see me and tell me that I have helped them when they were being viciously attacked and that I was in the company of a very tall man..and that he seemed powerful and unreal!! God knows I tell you all no lie!!! What is wrong with me? my husband thinks I am crazy...I woke up a few years ago and told him that I dreamt that me and my male "friend" fought off a bear that was attacking a wheelchair bound young man in a field...hours later on the news, it was reported that a wheelchair bound youth was attacked on his family farm as he parents sat helplessly and watch. Immediately,  they witnessed the bear starting to fight off something behind it..and the bear was actually swinging at something or someone that was not visible by anyone but the bear. The husband chalked it off as a "mad bear", but the mother called it help from a guardian angel!...My husband has been afraid of me since!! HELP ME!! Why is this happening to me...and what am i expected to do....I feel like I am suppose to be doing something, but I don't know what it is!! Please Help!! I have so many other experiences, but i don't want to seem fanatical! However, i must talk to someone about this...I live in a small town and if you aren't talking about Jesus....then your pleas go unheard.! I pray that I haven't offend any of you! Peace and Blessings!

Hello Sheba4 and thank you for sharing:

I understand what you mean by not belonging in this World. I've had experiences that let me know that life in this World isn't what my existence is truly about, but I have things to accomplish, so I stay here.

I communicate with spirits a lot, some of them are unfriendly, but fortunately the friendly ones are also around.

Some near death experiencers speak of how they don't like having to come back to this World.

I once saw a video where near death experiencer Dannion Brinkley told a guy during an interview that we are having a near death experience while here in this World. They found that quite funny, and so did I.  

I let some of my coworkers know about a couple of books I wrote recently. After years of working with them they just found out that I claim to communicate with spirits. Some of them probably think I'm nuts. Oh well.

Ms. Vicky,

I am grateful for your prompt response! When it comes to making things like this up, I refuse to, as I do not want to be responsible for possibly hindering someone else's journey here.

As for writing my experiences down, I use to years ago, but once I had an aunt find my journal, read it, and then went on to tell people that I was an evil person possessed, as I seemed to have a discerning spirit..in her words. She said that because some of the things that happened within the family, like tragic events, were PRE-DATED in my dream journal. I don't always "see" the events that soon occur, but rather, I see them in flashes..like on a screen...in snippets...but the entire time my guide is explaining the bigger mystery/knowledge behind the events so that I can understand, and possibly help others understand some tragedy. My experiences are so all over the place that I don't know what to make of them, but the ones that I love most are the ones that come to me when I am at my lowest point, either stressing out over something, or hurt feelings..(I am not that easily hurt, so when i hurt...I hurt) during those times...when I fall asleep, I find myself in a open pasture...filled with beautiful green grass and a smooth landscape..all is silent around me and suddenly a wind begins to blow and this wind is sooo powerful..yet it does not knock me down, nor sway me, I just feel and sense its power. Suddenly, a light that is the most beautiful light I have ever seen appears in the heavens and this light engulfs me...it talks to me...not literally, but to my heart...and I feel a love that I have yet to experience on this earth, and my tears are no longer tears of grief but pure joy. This "voice reassures me and tells me that "IT" sees me, and is always with me.I am so caught up in bathing in that Love...that Power, that I forget all about the things that grieved me. However, when i come back to (awake), I bawl like a baby! I want to go back into that light so bad, but I know I can't..I usually am anti-social shortly thereafter, as I want to not lose the memory of the experience. Other times, my guide just comes to me, but I don't go searching for him...I actually try to hide from him because during those times I just want to have my own private pity party...but then he shows up and he begins to affectionately remind me that there is a season and purpose for all things, and that most of them are things that I chose for myself, he reminds me to let go of myself??..and to question why the people that hurt me...hurt me or others for that matter..He usually goes on to convince me to reach out to that person so that I can help them "undderstand" and find their purpose. I can tell you this, after these motivating expereinces, my broken spirit and heart is mended and I arise with a better sense of things. I awaken and suddenly I have figured out the resolution to most of my troubles, though not all.

As for my husband...Lol...he is not afraid of me as in I am psychotic, but he is more awe struck if anything. I wake up and tell him my dreams only to find out that I was penetrating his dream...he says I am nosey even while asleep!! Hehehe But, he just doesn't know how to take me. He is convinced that I am called by God or something...I tell him that we are ALL called by God, so that his explanation does not help me figure out my situation! Lol...Of course, i have a flip mouth! But, I don't see myself as someone "special" in that sense...I'm just me...albeit I have some "weird" characteristics. I understand concepts before they are explained to me...just weird!! I am seeking help, Ms. Vicki, but the Web is so filled with self-gratifying fake bologna that I don't know where to start looking for reliable sources who are passionate about this. I don't want to take advantage of people and tell them lies just to appease their low desires, I want to know why am i this way and what can I do to reach out to others that are this way...I can't be alone in this! That would freak me out!!  I just wish that I could turn off these abilities sometimes...I can't even meet people without being able to sense what they are thinking, if they are sincere, etc...all kinds of silly things that I rarely find relevant.  I am a mess!

@Mr. Oliver...wow! That makes perfect sense! I try to maintain a balance, but some days are harder than others. Also, I agree with you about "a part of you knowing all about it", for when I am in these other realms, I "know" everything. Here in my daily walk, this knowing is hidden beneath the surface; however, it comes out when it is needed to reach out to someone. Question: have you ever "visited" other planets/worlds? And are you always with the same "person". Do you ever feel like you are supposed to share these experiences?



@ Ms. Vicki, I pray that you have just as many of those experiences as I have, but I perceive that you you have had your own similar experiences. Only difference is that you don't seem to question it as much as I do, but are much more accepting of it. Moreover, you seem like a very old soul that just keeps coming back to play your game of hide and seek...in other words, you like to see how often you can come back and still remember the place(s) from which you came...does that make sense? It's like an intriguing and enjoyable journey for you! Yes, I will purchase one of his books, I am a bit anxious ...as if i have spoken with him before or met him before...it's quite odd, i know. AND OMG!! You said "spiritual"..I am in awe because all of these experiences that I have had have a very strong spiritual aspect to them. And most times, i am spoken to by my guide with him using parables that you could deem "biblical" yet, they are not written in the bible...it's just the similarities are there. I will take your advise and resume my dream journal. Thankfully, I have matured and am no longer bothered by the rantings of my troubled aunt! Thank you so much! And I will take advantage of the wonders of this cite....so far it feels as if a boulder has lifted off of me! 

@ Recoverer...you are a breath of fresh air! It was a pleasure to share, especially since I have met such understanding people! And what is the name of your book? This is great!

Sheba4:

Thank you for the breath of fresh air comment.

One book is called "A Night in Heaven." It is available at amazon.com and barnesandnoble.com. My name is "Albert Haust."

In the very near future another book I wrote will also be available. It is called: "Joining the Oneness - Beyond Nonduality."






Sheba4 wrote on Oct 4^th, 2011 at 9:36pm:

Sheba4...what a number of amazing experiences.  It appears you are going to live a wonderfully entertaining life, with tremendous discoveries forthcoming.  My best wishes for your incredible journey.

Sheba4 - do what all Explorers do - have fun!

In other words - transform your experience/there into experience/here. Write a book and share with others. Record audio stories and share with others. Or do some paintings. Make something of your experiences, so they can help others or give them fun.

For example, just by writing stories or guided exercises that stimulate imagination or encourage people to ask questions or see the world from different perspective - you learn about yourself, and you are dedicating yourself to something of value. Bob Monroe wrote 3 books, and made a lot of sound gadgets related to his experiences. Bruce Moen wrote 5 books (-: I wrote one book and made a lot of sound gadgets related to my experiences. Express yourself in a creative way, finding balance in becoming aware of what we - the children of this Earth - are.

If you are looking for best guidance - become your own guide. What would you recommend to someone, who would come to you, and said to you, what you said here? How would you convince them, encourage them, show them, to make clear for them?

p.s.: and learn to purify your language of exploration/description. Transparency is something, that helps to stay beyond conflicted beliefs. For example - ask proper and neutral questions, to answers you have found, and give the brainstorm of options without implying that they "must" be real and absolute.