Hey there,

Don't rely on memories. They've all been chewed over a million and two times.
Abilities don't just disappear; they're a part of you. But kinda like loved pets who will be mad at you for a while for not having pampered them in such a long time.
Just go ahead and try again, see for yourself where they take you and whether you can believe yourself or not. Don't forget you are the one you need to convince, not the "general public". People who aren't part of your experience can only imagine what happened and decide whether they believe it or not only based on their own image of it. So don't let anyone else confuse you.

I hope you'll hear from your cat soon

take care,
Vagabound

Dear Sa(l)vage,

You are extremely courageous (brave -- with heart) ! You are an explorer of the spiritual afterlife, you are now living on 'his side of the world' -- with his mother, and your main loving anchor to your former years has passed on!  Give yourself some credit !  You are amazing!

New experiences probably bring a few new anxieties, and you've had plenty of opportunity to collect some.  Occasionally we explorers    have to stop and shed  some negative energies we've picked up along the way. Meditation, prayers, an extra nap --  I've used many techniques to create some space and they all help.

In other words I'm wondering if your anxieties may not be about the afterlife itself, just an overflow from all the changes etc you've been facing.   Like when you say " Like a cruel trick of particle physics that leads one to have senses beyond their physical selves in NDEs right before they blink out into nothing. "-- NDEs  do  not  blink out into nothing, dearheart. We get to hear from them afterwards, that's why they're called Near....

Betson

God your story is really terrifying. I am a bit afraid by reading this one.

Sa(I)vage,

The idea of giving up on attachments in this life in order to progress spiritually is one we Westerners find most difficult to grasp.  For it seems that if we must give up on attachments to people we love and things, then nothing matters.  But that is not what giving up on attachments really means.

If one is attached to material objects and things only, then one is indulging a certain type of selfishness and thereby losing sight of what is really important - people and love.  In my mind, the better way to look at things is that your love for your husband and your surroundings is not tied to that one moment of time, but is part of you.  That feeling can be held and replicated in the future, when you pass on.  I don't think the deceased have to give up on their loved ones forever or what they consider beautiful.  They do have to go with the flow, and adapt to their new surroundings and dimensions.

If we have the choice to take actions or not to now, in the physical world, why would we not have these choices when we shed our physical bodies?  If our choice would be to surround ourselves and loved ones with beauty, and to spend time with our loved ones, I'm sure this would come to pass.

It is hard for me, as I said, to understand what Eastern mystics describe as "letting go" of attachments in the world.  Slowly, I am realizing that these attachments are unrealistic expectations that things will remain the same on the physical plane - not our love of others or what we consider to be beautiful. 

Will your love of your cat and your husband continue, and will you be reunited?  Most certainly, if it is already a part of you now. 

We live in the present though, and hypotheticals shouldn't deprive us from living.  Enjoy what you have.  Don't put subconscious thoughts into your mind about these fears.  Thoughts held deeply and with conviction take root.  Do not be like Job and say "that which I feared has come upon me; that which I dreaded has come true."   Instead, focus on the love and the joy you described, and hold onto that image.  Whatever we hold onto with conviction tends to be delivered into our lives.  We can not choose our circumstances, but we can choose our thoughts.


Matthew