Bardo wrote on Feb 1st, 2011 at 11:12am:Beau,
I find that for me, the process is a (sometimes confused) mixture of all three. I reflect, and I observe others while they reflect etc. In the meantime I am living and wallowing through experience. Periodically the three processes form a confluence, which may propel me further along my path in a rush. Then they separate again, and I plod some more. I would love to establish a pattern, or a rhythm in my spriritual growth, but this seems elusive. That is one reason I come here; to see how others are doing it, and hear their reflections, and their "war stories" about their own journeys.
Your comments resonate quite clearly with me...a constantly changing, undefinable portion of all three...I am currently wallowing in my own experiences, seeking to obtain wisdom enough to take that first plodding step. My guidance is shouting at me to take that step, which from my standpoint is difficult because it appears my foot is nailed to the floor...I am assured it is not, but I am blinded by a sense of responsibility and fear of the unknown inherent in the extreme changes I face.
It sounds so easy when guidance tells you that if you jump "wherever you fall will be much better than where you are, and will place you on your clearly marked path", then the details get in the way and keep me going in circles defined by the nailed foot. I have no choice but to pull out the nail and walk, and it begins with a hard conversation...my weakness and therein my lesson. Up to this point I would have considered my life charmed...all of it a foundation for a remarkable set of experiences...and hopefully the development of wisdom...from any and all sources.