12/10/2010 - morning session:

I have finally entered a new paradigm. It is now spotty but encouraging… because more depth moves inward rushes are happening in my last few sessions… I don’t know how long it is going to take but at some point I expect a deep shift in awareness which will be dynamic and profound.

After my near-death experience in Oct 2007, I had powerful events which lead me to believe that it was always going to be right out of a Monroe, Moen and other writer experience descriptions and I was going to be happy ever after… unfortunately is has not turned out that way… I don’t exactly know why… but to get to this point has taken grim, grueling persistence only reward by occasionally events that reminded me what it is I am trying to accomplish… I wish it was easier… but for “me” this is what it takes (I can’t speak for anyone else)…

Potpourri session: AKG disc 1: cut 1-relaxation exercise; cut 5-Silly Little Finger Exercise; AKG disc 1: cut 1-relaxation exercise; cut 6 - Perceiver/Intercepter exercise: disk 4: Imagination exercises joob condition d

Relaxation phase:
Silly Little Finger exercise:

Didn’t reach f10 until this exercise… now my head weighs a ton and the occipital pressure on the pillow is pronounced… I feel like I am swimming… falling sensation…

Relaxation phase:
Perceiver/Interpreter:

Intense pressure around my forehead the ‘crown of thorns’ effect… neck and shoulder area heavy pressure against the recliner… television screen appears… two small then they merge into one larger… 3d blackness attempting to gather formations… see nose and mouth… Christmas song turns on… ‘have a merry little Christmas’… heart chakra jolt… looking down on the face of a woman smiling…

Imagination exercise

Big faced lady… woman screaming, ‘no, no, no….’ Egyptian looking wild man with black hair intense insane eyes, grimacing… naked to the waist… Andrea looking person… heart chakra jolt… more pronounced… working on an image of an orange, peeling it and eating the slices..

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Started mantra…

Now I am out of body

Nerve pains right bicep… left side of left bicep… surface itching left cheek…(clearly the etheric double attempting to separate… brain opens… cerebral cortex… fb shift… purple pulse television screen… landscape forms in it… a baby face looking right… nappy headed face… draining in the kidney area… camouflaged soldier with a machine gun running to the right… on satin green turf… see Joan of Arc type armour… Noel Coward…

S.

12/17/2010 - morning session:

There is a strong new occurrence… the vivid colors… am I getting stronger??? Making more contact??? It is all painfully slow developing… but it is wbat it is….

Potpourri session: AKG disc 1: cut 1-relaxation exercise; cut 5-Silly Little Finger Exercise; AKG disc 1: cut 1-relaxation exercise; cut 6 - Perceiver/Intercepter exercise: disk 4: Imagination exercises joob condition d

Relaxation phase:
Silly Little Finger exercise:

F10 , fb movement, 

Relaxation phase:
Perceiver/Interpreter:

Green… masts of sailing ships…

Imagination exercise

Above a city…  upper left view frame… red swatch, green swatch… black aircraft modern jet military… blue sky in a cathedral… pinkish arrow left side of view area pointing right… a very pretty girl (favoring Elizabeth Smart) pinkish/white face… smiling… I engage in conversation… she says she is my guide… attempts to help me out of my body but no banana… said her name was Mary…

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Yellow… a name pops into my head Karlinsky???

S.

12/19/2010 - morning session:

Potpourri session: AKG disc 1: cut 1-relaxation exercise; cut 5-Silly Little Finger Exercise; AKG disc 1: cut 1-relaxation exercise; cut 6 - Perceiver/Intercepter exercise: disk 4: Imagination exercises joob condition d

Relaxation phase:

Interesting development… the heart chakra is starting to become prominent… jolting and buzzing more often and more persistently… f10... Heart chakra…

Silly Little Finger exercise:

Full f10... (seems to be possible to have deeper f10 levels…) fb shift… [more tremering of the fb… could it be that I am developing the separation between the bodies and it takes (in my case longer or it is just various individuals have varying degrees of ability) to get a separation of the fundamental energy body from the physical body… and it takes a lot of diligent daily effort to accomplish it…] song starts… ‘You made me love you… I didn’t want to do it… I didn’t want to do it… ‘ gangster fedora type hat on a man… I get the impression this is a retrieval… a gangster is surprised by an hired (al capone era) assassin… he lets down his guard for a moment around the playing of this song… is shot… and dies… but I don’t seem to be able to make contact… I am in a position to help but not skilled enough to help… a baby faced person appears (baby face nelson??)…

Relaxation phase:

Overcoat over shoulders… fedora… see a scene surprise attack from rear… a guide comes in… they thank me for helping out… another vintage song comes in … Just in time you’ve found me just in time. Before you came my time was running low

Frank Sinatra… black leather… I may be involved in the Tony Curtis retrieval I started a month ago… the symbols point to movies he may have been in and people of the Hollywood era… I see american wwii officer uniforms… and air force soft caps… black hooded suits… (I think my mind is trying to develop the 3d blackness and recognizable forms are developing in the process)… 

Perceiver/Interpreter:
Imagination exercise

Heart chakra again attempting to engage… female face… goddess… heart chakra… hitler salute… black suits… 3d blackness… energy from above… really feeling the energy flows… heart chakra… swastikas… filing the sub-brow storage area with energy from above… feeling love… another song… ‘The yanks are coming… strum, strum, strumming over there…’ Odette going to be a nun…

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Solar plexus chakra engages… sputters… mantra: Now I am out of body… third eye sputters… heart chakra… (patience is all that is needed going forward… when these three chakras begin to engage and sustain their engagement I will be in for some amazing experiences…) football run… gold pants… strong image of a full faced black woman…

S.