Vee
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Thanks, Bets. Yes, this was a new discovery for me but when it came to me, it seemed so obvious it was almost embarrassing. I need to take time to connect with all my loved ones there to offer them some loving energy. Another thing I have been thinking about is that when someone dies, even if we know they are in the AL and even if we can connect with them there, there is always that habit of spending time in the day of remembering things that we resented or that upset or bothered us in some way about that person, while they were in this life. I have spent much time being caught in anger against my parents as I remembered things in the past that I "crave" balance for and justice for. Lately I have realized that, hey, I'm almost ready for leaving earth myself (I'm 66) and they have been gone a long "time" and I am now FREE TO LOVE THEM, JUST LOVE THEM. And leave behind all the rest. I don't need to try to balance anything out on their behalf or blame or complain or be angry any more. I am now free to love. Whatever possibilities there are for justice, balance, "fixing everything" or whatever, I don't have access to it. But I do have access to total, unremitting love. And leave the rest behind now, it's time. It feels like a seductive freedom, the freedom to love my family without anger or resentment now. Perhaps, after all, this is what Heaven is. Vee
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