chrwe wrote on May 26th, 2010 at 1:02am:Hi dear people,
still I cant sleep through nights because questions go around in my head and fear fills my heart.
For all those who find this sad: it is! But its not something you can just stop - or I would.
I`ve got a question you may be able to answer. From what I see here, we are incarnations of a spirit being. After death, the spirit being leaves the body again. And then?
It seems from your posts that we incarnate again. Do we lose all our memories? It seems so - I certainly dont remember any past lives. How, if we lose our memories, are we still "ourselves"? Can we remember past lives after death? Other past lives? Do we HAVE to reincarnate, I dont see myself wanting to due to the loss of what I consider myself?
painfully yours
may the light be true
Chrwe
My belief is that after this lifetime we return to the afterlife or heaven, call it what you will. While there we analyze our actions and reactions to the events from the just past life in an effort to grow in our ability to live a love-filled life and think and feel through love. Also, while there we are in our natural environment as souls of pure energy and love.
Each soul makes its choice to live its lives on earth or in spirit. If they are going to live a life on earth incarnate, then they plan with others, usually in a soul group, the primary activities that they will live through...some of which are immutable events already written for the earth to undergo, while others are planned between souls which may or may not occur based on free will. Free will trumps all while a soul is incarnate, and a soul can obviate its entire lifeplan by personal choice...whether guided by its incarnate desires or by its higher self...or to stick to the plan like glue. Free will in everything.
Beau has a great essay on this site describing the parallel between lives lived and actors on a stage...inspired by "all the world's a stage and the men and women players on it". In a nutshell, you, your own ego/identity are a character in the play of your life which you planned. Free will enables you to act extemporaneously, or you can act out the script. The other characters in your play are members of your soul group who have reviewed the script with you prior to this lifetime and you have each chosen characters to play and the method in which you will play those roles. Your soul is essentially the actor, while you, as an incarnate being with an ego/identity, are the specific role you chose to play while onstage. Death is simply the end of the character's role and your ego/identity has then left the stage.
With that, the actor, your soul, has played hundreds if not thousands of roles on earth. Just as an actor never forgets a role (s)he plays, a soul never forgets the ego/identities it has had while incarnate. Further, your soul is in touch with everything you can see, feel, taste, touch, and smell, together with senses you cannot conceive while incarnate. The soul remembers everything you thought, felt, and understood about your time on earth to a level your ego/identity cannot understand. So, no...the soul does not forget you as chrwe because you are your soul, you are the actor...the identity of chrwe is simply a role you played for this incarnation...this play of life.
As for whether you have to come back to another incarnate lifetime, it is your soul's choice...free will. You do not have to but I'm willing to bet you will. Look at it as on the job training...while in spirit you can study and learn all you want but until you are "acting" it out or undergoing a "live fire" exercise, how will you know if you really understand it? How will you actually do in front of a live audience?
As for remembering past lives and memories, I have made a catalog of prior lives through meditation and the akashic records. The feelings and thoughts evoked by those past lives while "looking" and examining those identities come through extremely clearly, and it is done through the perspective of the soul so I see everything the past identity sees as well as the incarnate being itself and everything surrounding it.
I hope this helps assuage some of your fear...I am sorry about the length of it all, but I wanted to give you my take on it...not that it is a certainty for anyone but me, but to me it is all.