hi i've asked god to let me have a near death experience during my operation in hospital so i can talk to him and jesus as i am so unhappy and down,i hope god grants this as i really need to talk to him and jesus

i want them to tell me what to do,how to get through life as i don't know anymore,i'm getting so tired,i just want to go to sleep and talk to god and jesus,so i do hope that i get my near death experience during my op.

love and god bless ,and may god bring me the light  love juditha

juditha,

"i want them to tell me what to do,how to get through life as i don't know anymore,i'm getting so tired,i just want to go to sleep and talk to god and jesus,so i do hope that i get my near death experience during my op."

Feeling down and out, drained, hoping for someone to show you the way, waiting to be saved, sounds familiar. Long story short, placing the power to do something about your life into someone else's hands, can also block the best one fit for the job out - having unique first-hand experience and knowledge about this topic - you. I'm not into religion, so I'll put it this way, family and friends can only go so far to help, one also has to help oneself. Not expecting to reach the goal in one giant step, but break it into several steps/part-goals, keeping the eye one the mini-goal, divided into a manageable piece, working at it, keep working at it, reaching a point closer to the main goal, feeling better, moving on, reaching another point, gaining confidence, moving on.

b2 volu and hawkeye(joe) thanks for writing back to me and i know what you all have written makes a lot of sense,its just this weekend i have absolutley longed for death.infact this death wish has been the strongest it's ever been,i don't feel so down today,yesterday i was on the wine,it was the only way to cope with it but i do feel better today

i should try and remember that god and jesus listen to me all the time,thanks for all you encourageing words that have helped me to think what life is really all about love you all god bless  love juditha

hi b2 i am doing a portrait of a very famous woman in the old century that helped the poor having come from a wealthy family,her name was octavia hill,she's well known in england were i live.its going on exibition in the summer,when i finished her i will put it on here so you can see it.

love and god bless   love juditha