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Well, there is proof actually. The problem though is there is no proof which someone can provide for you. In order to get proof, you have to obtain it yourself. That's the whole idea. I don't mean you have to die. There are plenty of meditations and things throughout the site which apparently teach you how to confirm these things has knowledge rather than beliefs. I'm personally not ready to obtain that knowledge. I'm not ready to leave my simple life behind just yet. But sometime before 2012 and probably before this year ends I will attempt something.

I don't want to hear people saying I did the right thing. That pisses me off. I didn't do the right thing. Death is never right, death is never ok. The moment you start thinking like that I hope you drop dead and die because life is everything.

I know this isn't the dream section but I am keeping everything about my cat together. I slept 3 ours and upon waking I remember my cats watery food and the food was on my chest.

That's all I know for sure.

....I think maybe the food was being licked off me and maybe was in the shape of a heart but I am not sure of that part.

Awareness hit me and my hurting eyes.
I have returned to a world in which my cat is dead. MY friend, but more than that. Not at all just a cat. I have two other cats and a dog and I would be upset if they died, true, but.. I didn't let them in. I let Salem in. He was in me, a part of me, and I am a crazy person. I am not letting the other pets in.

I can't.

I'm sorry for being rude earlier, I do want people to post. I need to feel that connection with someone right now to share this. I'm hurting really badly.

Starcraft, many of us understand your pain, because many of us have let an animal into our hearts and then suffered that terrible loss.  I can still shed a tear over the death 15 years ago of Keesha, a dog my then-family adopted as a puppy.  When Keesha was 10, I got divorced and the two kids were gone, so the last five years of her life it was just Keesha and me.  I selected two houses to live in during that time with a primary criterion that they work for her.  Then, at 15, her kidneys failed.  She couldn't walk and wasn't interested in eating and had the saddest eyes in the world.  After she had spent several days at the vet with all manner of treatment, to no avail, I held her while the vet put her to her final sleep in this life.  I cried more tears then and in the days that followed than I cried when either of my parents died. 

Yes we will lose them and it will break our hearts, but we still need to welcome and love those animal friends.  They are like no other.

Now I live alone with Luna, the calico cat my daughter brought home as a kitten five years ago.  Since my daughter died in Oct. 2008, Luna is a living link to Megan for me.  Since Luna is very shy and hides when anyone else is in my house, I am her only companion.  And I know it will break my heart again when she dies.  But I wouldn't give up the having of her because of that.

I really want to be able to say something which could ease your mind. I know that if nothing we say can do that, time will eventually be your healer.

I feel I'm a pretty young person to have known so many people who have died which were close to me. I don't know anyone personally my age who has known death like I have. I realize there are people with far greater tragedies, but I know only my own experiences and can only sympathize or empathize with others.

One thing I have noticed with all of the people which I cared about and died in my life, I've never felt an overwhelming sadness. Most of my sadness was during their dying process, and upon each death I could only stare at those which weeped and mourned and wonder why I could not join them. I think now that its part of my inner strength and my own understanding that death is not to be as feared and mourned as much as we feel it should, simply because our consciousness does not fully understand it yet.

I think that the relationship with your cat was a very spiritual one, and that relationship has only left physically for the moment. In time, that relationship will be mended and it will return to you. I don't even mean in death. In your life now I believe that love will return. In what form I could not say. But give it time and keep your head up, love your family and find the gratitude for life and your grief will fade.

I know it is hard to accept some words and allow them to help but I hope that you will relax your mind and allow us to give you strength. I don't even know you and I felt a strong urge to encourage you. That has to mean at least something.

I think you're being too hard on yourself. It's a natural instinct for a cat which is very sick to withdraw, to want to be alone, especially, and most importantly, when it is 'time' to go. That is a sure sign that Salem was ready. I have witnessed this before. The instinct is to crawl into a small, dark corner somewhere where he could not be disturbed. So, it's not your fault, and even if you had been nearby, he might have done the same thing when you walked away, just for a few minutes. I can understand why you feel bad, but I just don't think you should blame yourself at all. It sounds to me like you and your wife were very much there, and very much did everything you could do, and more than many people would do, under the circumstances.

Well, it's late, and there are things to do...tomorrow. Poor Death Cat. I'm having a toast, to Salem. I couldn't decide which, the Yellow Tail or the Bogle, but went ahead and poured the Bogle...we hardly knew him....so, here's to Salem.

Generally speaking, I feel that (IF) souls//spirits//some sort of upper consciousness exist all living things would HAVE to have one. The only thing is generally most animals really are not able to show it much.

It is so difficult//impossible when trying to gauge exactly what an animal is thinking.

Like my cat would look at me more than anyone in my household and his eyes looked at me in a loving way. What was he really thinking? Obviously he cannot think like a human.... When WE think in our minds... we think in.... WORDS!!!!!

Tell me you don't.... =P