Alan McDougall
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An excerpt of my struggle with manic depression
Note; The reason I posted this article was because so called mad people were considered holy both in biblical Scripture and in primitive peoples society they are called the wise man.Mania opens your mind to many wonderer's of the psychic and metaphysical paranormal world.One the doorway is opened it never closes again , if great men who were bipolar had been medicated we might have being living in a much poorer world
Please note that what I am describing is not the mild beneficial hypo mania of high performing persons of history who also had this disorder. This mild form of mania existed in a large number of great and creative persons. It was there that one saw the enormous energy of Winston Churchill , Ludwig Van Beethoven, William Blake, Napoleon Bonaparte,, Charles Dickens, T.S. Elliot, Robert Frost, Sigmund Freud, Ernest Hemingway, Abraham Lincoln, Jack London, Robert Co well, Michelangelo,, Mozart, Isaac Newton, Edgar Allen Poe, Mark Twain, Vincent Van Gogh, King David, King Saul. To name a very few of the countless great personalities that suffered in different degrees from a milder form of this disorder.
I begin to see visions, hallucinate, sometimes-beautiful visions of other worlds, universes, heaven and see and perceive colors that do not exist on this earth. I feel I was in constant communication every being in existence as I was truly God incarnate. I was convinced I was god. I feel that I am the incarnation of the sublime, wanting to remain in this state forever.
I continue to have vivid visions and dreams, so real that I still do not know if I was communicating with some higher intelligence. I can see the future flashing before my eyes in rapid non-stop visions. My eyes dart back and forth, back and forth, become red, and inflamed and terrifying to look into.
I am in another reality beyond space and time an alarming altered state of consciousness. No loner feeling glorious, I am becoming more and scared, terrified of this uncontrollable state and everything starts to go out of contra.
My body begins to die from the unrelenting drain off energy on it by this completely abnormal state of affairs. I became paranoid fearful, horrified, terrified desperate to escape the horror that has become
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