Hi guys,

I've been mulling over whether I should post this or not as I don't want to seem like a crazy person   But I decided I should get it out there and get some opinions on it...

The other night a sequence of events happened that have rocked my boat a little.  As a long story short, OH and I were watching the TV and a program came on (some reality dance show) and my OH remarked how one of the judges was from one of my favorite films.  I said, oh yeah so he is!  And thought nothing more of it.

I had been feeling very down for the past few days to the state of having a near on breakdown earlier that day and his seeming lack of support made me wonder if I was with the right person or not.  We had a good talk about it and I felt a bit better about us and like we had passed a milestone in the relationship.

A bit later I decided to flick to the movie channel, and I was shocked - just starting was the film mentioned before.  My spirits soared and I settled down to watch.  Now, I used to be obsessed with this movie, one of the only ones I could watch over and over and over again   But when I met my partner I didn't really bother with it again feeling like I'd grown out of it.

So, I settled down watch it but got distracted by forum reading.  Then out of the corner of my ear I heard "Mrs (my name) (my partners last name)".  I did a double take and went, woah, what was that!  I rewinded the film (thank goodness for Sky+!) thinking it was a trick of my mind, but once again heard the same thing (between the main character and her best friend who was getting married - I always imagined it to be me and my best friend while watching as I fancied myself as the main character ).  I rewound it 3 or 4 times then asked my partner what he heard, and it was totally different.  He said she said "How's it feel to be Mrs Montangaro" or something.  It's hard for me to explain but it felt like there was a subconscious overlay there, I literally heard "Mrs (my name) (my partners surname)".

I felt really freaked - I've never felt so much in a Matrix scenerio.  My Mind scanned the possibilities - did Aliens program me to meet my partner?  Am I going crazy?  Did I base my entire life over a film I watched?  I honestly thought I had broke the Matrix at that point and that I would suddenly wake up somewhere totally different, it took me a while to keep grounded, and thank God I'm still here! (touch wood).

It wasn't until the next day I remembered reading in Micheal Newtons "Journey of Souls" that before coming to a physcial incarnation, a lot of time is spent in "recognition" classes where certain triggers are programmed in so that work can be done between various souls here in the physical.  I'll also say that my partner is the only person that felt "right" to have as my last name, I came close to being married before but the name seemed "wrong"..  We aren't married yet but it's on the cards when we can afford it and have been together 6 years with 2 children - we've had a LOT of ups and downs but we're now both in a place where we are far better, stronger people due to all we've been through.

So...  What do you think.  Am I crazy?  I mean how on earth is it possible that before birth I knew what film would be around and overlay my partners name with mine?  I'm still very freaked but I can't deny how clearly I heard it...  What makes things wierder to me is that my partner and I lived in two very different cities when we were younger, but by all rights we should have met in our teens - he played ice hockey at my local ice rink, and my best friend at the time asked me if I wanted to take iceskating lessons there...  I desperately wanted to but due to my Dad's suicide money was tight and my Mum had to say no - but if that hadn't happened we'd have met then as the hockey guys and the figure skaters used to hang around with each other   As it turns out, we met later anyway when I moved to his city for Uni....  We clicked as soon as we met and very quickly led onto a relationship - he moved in with me within about a month   And as I've said, it's been far from plain sailing but I'm very happy with where we are currently..

I don't know, maybe I am crazy, but this is the most *real* unreal thing to ever happen to me and I've felt so off balance since.  If this is real then how many other "triggers" have I followed?  How did I do it?  What else have I got subconsciously stored?

Looking back over the chains of events in my life, it's become pretty clear to me that John and I were meant to be together earlier on, events intervened, and things came around to restore the original plan.  Things like people acting out of character one time only, in ways that caused life-changed events that brought us together.

Long after we met, I found out that my folks had almost bought property practically next door to where he grew up, but then the deal fell through.  Then for a number of years I had a specific sort of man I was attracted to...which suddenly, out of the blue enough that I even noticed it at the time, that changed - to the physical type that John was.  Bunch of other really long shots came together (including him buying a horse that I'd owned several years before, then finding my name as a farrier through a really odd series of connections).

As soon as I met him I "recognized" him...took us a while to get it together permanently, but even when we tried to go our seperate ways, it wasn't possible.

Short answer - I think fate, or our higher selves, or who knows what, gives nudges.  If a bigger, stronger event knocks us off course, those same powers/beings/whatever starts nudging us back toward our intended path.

Like driving a car - we have an intended route, but if we're detoured, we don't leap back to our original path, we find a road that works and follow it back to where we were meant to go.