Life is so strange, Juditha....there will never be another Juditha like the Juditha we have today, here with us today. We could take your picture, make a voice recording, cut a lock of your hair, do all sorts of things to keep you. We could paint a portrait, we could bind up some of your writings, we could wear your clothes. We could do everything and anything under the sun to keep you with us, Juditha, this Juditha, the one that is here with us today. Where does she go when she is not here? This Juditha?

You have really got me thinking now. A year from now, I will be happy to make the acquaintance of the new Juditha. The 'year from now' Juditha, who will, no doubt, be a lovely girl. So glad to know you, my dear!

Sometimes there doesn't seem to be much reason for a smile, but usually there is, something, someone, peeking around the corner at me. So, who will it be, this time?

Juditha,

I feel that you should be careful about such thoughts or predictions.  Our deepest beliefs tend to manifest in our lives.  I recall a book about the subconscious mind in which a soothsayer in India told an elderly man that he would die by the new moon.  The man got his affairs in order, said goodbye to his relatives and loved ones.  He was absolutely convinced that he would pass away, and, as the family tells it, he did die prior to the next full moon.  However, rather than this being a fixed fate, the man's subconscious belief acted in bringing about his own death! 

We use the law of belief to heal others.  We see them as whole, laughing, healed.  This is the basis for many types of spiritual healing.  The converse is also true.  If someone ties in something in the physical world to their deepest belief, it may manifest and come to pass.

I say choose happiness, joy, love, instead of death.  Eventhough we are talking about subconscious choices here, you can reaffirm to yourself while meditating or in prayer, that you are healthy and well.  These "affirmations" sink deep down into the subconscious, if you let them, and let yourself believe. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is simply this; don't let your mind wander in this way.  You are the captain of your ship/spirit so to speak.  Use your will to bring about the good changes, and see a sunlit path ahead of you.  You already have the love of God and others inside you (as readers of the board know), so you are more than half way there.....the rest is positive thinking.

Love,

Matthew

hi matthew i understand what you mean when you write that this man so convinced he would die on the next full moon and he did as i said the same about my dad that he would die after christmas and he did ,so i felt a bit uneasy about my own thoughts that i wont make it this year and i realise now i got to start beleiving that i will make it

not had a good year in 2009,so i was feeling quite down on myself and i started to go into this way of thinking about death and felt that it was my year for the spiritworld but i guess i have got quite a lot to do yet for a few more years,and thats what i am now going to concentrate on ,so thanks for your help matthew love and god bless  love juditha

hi sonya i am now feeling more positive about my future and i am going to concentrate on getting my art back into exibitions,so thanks for writing to me with those encouraging words.

love and god bless sonya  love juditha