Seraphis1
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A new "ME"!!
12/04/09 Evening session:
After the revelation, very disoriented again, session characterized by a great wink out… started heart intelligence then didn't recover consciousness until the Monroe's voice on Wave disc… cued me… lost winked out again… returned to consciousness… refreshed but no memory… the perceiver… and the interpreter disconnected…
[Slept fitfully… dreamed… can't publish this dream in the open.]
12/05/09 Morning session:
[Written on the evening of 12/06/09]
Still winking out… clearly I am in another crisis… but, this time it is quite different… I have lost my “Interpreter” I knew… that whole belief system had vanished… I am without a foundation that I always depended upon… re-reading p. 56 AKG… I realize I won’t be able to use my Bahia friend... this situation called for somethingelse and it is in the text… step away from the work… stand down… don't do the sessions for a few days… do something in the outside world…
In doing the above I discovered a new “ME”… To understand what happened you need to know the old “ME”…
[I am an RC Helicopter enthusiast, but, I fly ready to fly kits… I don’t build them… they are very complex and I usually send them to the shop and have them repair… because if you fly them you will crash them… well I wanted to spend all of my time flying but I had three crashed unuseable Helicopters which were useless, I have no schematics or tools, as I used to believe I needed… but…!! Here is what happened.]
I just sat down and took them all apart… then I intuitively began to put a single flyable Helicopter together… all I had was my intuition and a single Philips screw driver… the rest is history… I have been flying all weekend… and on Monday morning I plan on getting back to my “meditation/hemi-sync” regimen. I am astonished, to say the least my new “Interpreter” is an amazingly competent technician/mechanic… that is decidedly not the “Me” I used to know and be…
S.
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